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poopsnbladders

So if you don't know..............

Jun 21, 2004 13:05

.....Now you know. Moving away to be a different person is not what I need. It's not even possible. A change of location will change nothing in me. A sense of direction though, that could make all the difference and I sense that it will. I'm staying here in lovely Ventura County. No Philly. I'm not sad but relieved. I have a purpose here. This is ( Read more... )

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heavy words so lightly thrown... anonymous June 21 2004, 13:58:48 UTC

i'm really sorry.
and i'm not lying to you. ever.

love.
a.

Re: heavy words so lightly thrown... poopsnbladders June 21 2004, 23:54:31 UTC

They are mine to throw. I never said you were.

may i ask alicemeows June 21 2004, 17:49:53 UTC

when and why did you decided to stay?

Re: may i ask poopsnbladders June 21 2004, 23:49:07 UTC

Thursday, June 17th. Seeing the bigger picture of my life and what I want to do with it I came to the conlusion that moving nearly 3 thousand miles from all that I know and my very supportive family would not help me in reaching my objective. I want to serve my community. With Oxnard and the rest of Ventura County being that, I feel I could best serve by becoming a police officer in the city I know best. It's a dream and desire I've had ever since I can remember and I am going to pursue it. I've never had more a sense of direction than now and I'm getting such unexpected support. I really feel I've found my calling.

this icon makes me smile in some sick vampire way alicemeows June 21 2004, 23:52:36 UTC

thats great that you've found your calling. can you find mine too while you're on a roll, im lost.

send me an IM mr

Re: this icon makes me smile in some sick vampire way poopsnbladders June 22 2004, 00:10:26 UTC

Have you ever had a dream, a desire that was good and pure with no agenda? It may sound silly, romantic and idealistic but this is how I feel about mine. I want to help people and I feel this is how I could do that. I believe I was created to help people, that we all were but in our own way. I believe this to be true of you as well. Your path is in your heart. Somewhere with all of that brokeness and pain lies truth and direction. I've stopped listening to all of the opinions and negative remarks of others. I don't have it all figured out and I probably never will but a little sense of direction has me alive again.

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donkylestyle June 22 2004, 14:28:29 UTC

ive thought about being a cop myself. i mean think of the possibilities:
no speeding tickets ever again
free guns n mace
donuts galore.
and your job is to crack down on people doing illegal stuff, so you have to wait during your shift for someone to make your job a job.
plus the sun glasses