I don't really know how to express myself right now, my feelings are too jumbled, I am all fucked up. Everything in my life is fucked up and backwards, there's no point, I am empty. There's nothing, my life is an exercise in futility. I might as well, but I don't have the energy. The life of one man is nothing, the life of the planet is nothing, my ( Read more... )

another cigarette, another cup of coffee ( Read more... )

I got fired today. Just what I needed today, FUCK. Just what I needed in my life. Three years of service doesn't mean shit anymore I guess. Perfect timing too, everything is going so great, everything is fantastic. I think I might move away, get a new start somewhere else. Or pretend to attempt suicide for the attention.

I invited my folks to come to one of my bands shows, about a year ago, so of course they came. I like to perform drunk, it improves my stage presence. Now on this occasion I had bought a handle(biggest bottle they sell)of vodka, half-emptied out 2 big juice containers, and half-filled them back up with all the vodka. I drank these 2 enormous ( Read more... )

My friends Weston and Elaina(they are a couple), have joint incontinence problems. They both poo and pee the bed together. They must be in rapture together, I wish I could find someone to share my interests with. Elaina's parents are dead from heroin. She is so lucky! She got to be raised by her grandparents!! Can you imagine actually being raised ( Read more... )

I just jammed my pinkie toe into the fridge, it really hurt. That's where I always have trouble with the fridge, is getting things out of it. When I just chill and I don't bother the fridge is when we get along the best. I leave him alone he leaves me alone. Now the computer on the other hand, the computer cops an attitude, if I just ignore it. Boy ( Read more... )

MARIANNE WILL BE BACK FROM ITALY IN LESS THAN A MONTH!!!!!!!!! This thought just occured to me, I have missed her. Even when I was with she-who-shall-not-be-named, I still missed Marianne. I know what your thinking, "do you really think she will take you back after all the horrible shit you did to her?" I hope so ( Read more... )

My mom came and saw me at work today. She told me that Laura went to her NEW house, where I haven't even been yet, so how she found it is beyond me. She got into a PHYSICAL confrontation with my mother. Who, by the way, just had surgery, and apparently she popped a stitch during the scuffle. Evidently, Laura then went to several of my mothers new ( Read more... )

Glorious Prince of the heavenly hosts and victor over rebellious spirits, be mindful of me who am so weak and sinful and yet so prone to pride and ambition. Lend me, I pray, thy powerful aid in every temptation and difficulty, and above all do not forsake me in my last struggle with the powers of evil. Amen ( Read more... )

O my God, relying on your infinite goodness and promises, I hope to obtain pardon of my sins, the help of your grace, and life everlasting, through the merits of Jesus Christ, my Lord and Redeemer.