My Self-Loathing For You I hate myself-this dikish haircut-bitch bangs askew-almond eyes without their chink- I hate my skin-between mocha and cappucino-there's no definite-these small lips and luring- tongue, taste nothing- I hate this body- this non-existent chest- barely cop a feel- eat my stomach- my knees, my toes- they do me no good- I hate ( Read more... )

I'm the selfish bitch. I'm just trying to punish you. Yeah, I have no reasonablness in my reasons. Everyone of you can see that, because that's what you think. But you don't know how it feels. And if you do--you should understand. I'm not waiting anymore, because the more time I keep wasting on you, the more I feel like I'm prolonging this torment ( Read more... )

Maybe people flake out on me, because I'm not worth the time. Maybe I'd rather be alone today. Maybe I'd rather find someone else. Maybe I don't know what I want, who does? Maybe the entire world can kiss my ass. Maybe I'd rather be at the beach, thinking. Maybe I'd rather be eating shit. Maybe my dad will keep this job for awhile. Maybe we won't ( Read more... )

Why is there so much negativity or why isn't there enough? A new question to answer the old question. The reason why this place is so bland is because I don't know enough people with LJ to actually invite on here and "audition". May I suggest more reasoning, more commenting with the rejection/acceptance issues? Nothing makes me more fascinated than ( Read more... )

I'm so getting my ex back. This is great. I know I'm being too vengeful, but hell what else do I have to excite me besides Nina's ass and homework? So anyway...what we'll do is either stand him up, do a hit and run to his gonads, or have Jens and Eric pound the little fucker. Yeah that's right beeayitch! U trust the wrong people at the wrong time! ( Read more... )

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So it's been forever since I've made a post. Not that anyone has been reading. School is turning out to be an excellent adventure. I am quite comfortable and content with my classes, but still can't wait till the end of the year to get to Irvine w/ my GGCru. My birthday is oh so close, but oh so far away on November, and there has been talk of ( Read more... )

So I started school yesterday. Today was the first legitimate school day. Blocked schedules, 4 AP classes, senior year. Some of these things don't work for me, but what the hell. I actually like my classes, or I actually seem to be in a good mood during them regardless of how I've been dampened by prior events. However ( Read more... )

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