Awakening to the sound of a robot making an obnoxious noise and your leg vibrating is quite an awkward experience when you've only allowed yourself 4 hours of sleep. I began my day having images drawn in my mind about the dream I had during the night and most of the morning hours between midnight and 5 am. I really couldn't remember much, though I  ( Read more... )

I finally managed to Linda Blair the toilate in my berthing. The seas were pretty rough, I had a cold, a migrane and I had been awake since midnight the previous day, and the time of going demoic state happened a little past noon. I had infact been awake for 10 or more hours at the time. It was fun and I didn't think I could ever feel as bad as I  ( Read more... )

I'll be back in July. I'm going on a 5 month deployment to the middle of the ocean and several foreign ports. I'm really not looking forward to the unnecessary stress and boredom. The good thing about being away for so long is that I'll actually get to save up some money, and at the end of this all, I'll get to go home for 2 or 3 weeks on vacation ( Read more... )

Today I feel horrible. I'm sick, I'm tired and I'm beyond bored. I don't even think bored is the word, because I don't even want to do anything. I'm at the lowest point in my depression. It feels that way, though my actions do not perceive me to be. I feel destroyed internally. Maybe it's the fact that I've been here nearly a year and I still do ( Read more... )

This is where my mind wants to be.
 

What do I expect to accomplish this year? I expect a lot.

I'm going for a total of 40 pounds lost, furthering my intelligence by becoming fluent in Japanese so I can communicate with the people around me. I also need to figure out my relationship situation. It's difficult to manage having a girlfriend when I'm in Japan a total of a few months every ( Read more... )

I'm 22. Waaah!!! :[

Sooo old. Tomorrow will be filled with sleep + call of duty 4 + dota + photography and then my sleep.

What can you do when everyone is finding reasons to bring you down and put you in an unstable mind? You try to do everything right but it eventually comes out wrong. When you stay home on New Years and spend the night by yourself watching movies and being responsible and unaccompanied by the immature, obnoxious population of the people you work ( Read more... )

Thanks Boo for introducing me to Luke Pickett. He's probably my favourite singer / songer writer now. He sort of makes me want to buy a guitar and learn. I'm looking forward to his new album coming out, if it's not out already.

I can't wait until tomorrow. I'm going to go check out Tokyo for New Years Eve. I'll probably end up going myself, but that ( Read more... )

Have you ever just sat down and began to think about your past, about what you use to do and the life you use to live. Most people can recall having the same as I have been feeling for the past several weeks. It's been over a year since the last time I had complete control over my life. I was able to say no to things that were bad for me, and I was ( Read more... )