Capturing Stars
Title: Capturing Stars
Author: popsicola
Pairing: JunSeob
Genre: Romance, Angst
Rating: PG
Comments: This was supposed to be a DooSeob fic but since JunSeob is my OTP, I decided to change it xD (Yoseob’s POV).
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Was it cause I was no good to you anymore? Perhaps I was just an annoyance that kept clinging onto you like a child. Maybe it was both. You make me think such things that make my mind shatter and my heart slowly turn black. Of course I blame myself, and never you. Why would I ever blame you? I was just as slow and thickheaded as you claimed me to be. I should have let go when I had the chance. To be hurt like this is something no one would want to experience in their lifetime, too bad I wasn’t one of those lucky ones.
~~~~~
I walked into the darkness of the cool midnight air. Fresh air helped me clear my head out while I had complications. The sounds of my boots hitting the cold cement ground made me remember how lonely it was…without you. I reached my hands out and cuffed my jacket and wrapped it around me, shivering. I sighed as I watched my breath drift off into the sky. I stuck my hand out into the air, I wonder how far the stars are away from me, how far you are away from me. I grasped the air, wishing that I caught the star in my palms and that it would forever be mine.
How far away could you be right now…
Can you hear my thoughts? My heart beating for you?
That day, if I had shouted “Yah!” or “Pabo!”, would you have turned around to look at me once more? Would I have seen that face that I’ve been longing for? I guess nothings for sure, but a man can always keep dreaming forever. It’s the only reason why my heart is still beating this moment…it’s the reason why my mind is still thinking rationally, and not acting like a complete fool drunk on sorrow. Forgive me at least before we part for the last time. Please try to let me know somehow that I’m not despised by you any longer. Any sign would do. I stood there with my head titled up towards the sky, hoping for something to happen. And yet my heart sunk once again, but I think it’s okay to say that I’ve seen that coming sooner or later.
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My next destination was my final one as I say goodbye for the last time. I kneeled in front of your house as I held onto a jar. I hope you remember what this jar meant to the both of us. But it’s okay if you don’t, as I said before, I’d never blame you. My hands shook and my necklace clanged on the glass jar, making an echo in the ally next to me. I set the jar down and capped it up with the blue, glass lid. I reached into my pocket by my right chest and pulled out a picture with a note “goodbye” written on it.
I looked up suddenly as I heard footsteps trailing behind. It must be you, it must be. I quickly got up and ran into the dark ally, hiding myself from you. I peeked by the edge as I saw you pick up the jar I left on your doorsteps. You held it in your hands; you look speechless at the moment. I turned my head to face the brick wall that was in front of me, letting myself breathe. I heard a “pop” as you opened the jar and held the note in your hands. You picked up one of the stars from the glass jar and unraveled it. Reading the notes we wrote inside together. The memories we had together.
I gasped as you dropped to your knees. Your eyes sparkling in the moonlight, making the paper in your hands wet with tears. Are you crying because you remember? Are you crying because we left each other? Your hands tightened into fists as you leaned closer to the ground to pick up the picture you dropped. I hope you remember now…I hope the picture of us together still means something to you. I left the jar of stars for you to keep simply because it no longer belongs to me anymore. I’ve made a decision to let go, to simply keep quiet at the moment and walk away. It took me a while to realize this, but I think it’s done me a huge favor.
Fate is inevitable. It’s something you must accept and hold onto at all costs, cause by then, you’ll realize it’s the only thing you have left.
~~END~~
How was it? Good? Bad…? Hehe, haven’t wrote in a while. >w< But I’m back!
And I’m doing requests so leave a pairing and a genre in your comment if you want a fic from me :) I mite as well have something to work on in my spare time :]
Author: popsicola
Pairing: JunSeob
Genre: Romance, Angst
Rating: PG
Comments: This was supposed to be a DooSeob fic but since JunSeob is my OTP, I decided to change it xD (Yoseob’s POV).
~~~~~
Was it cause I was no good to you anymore? Perhaps I was just an annoyance that kept clinging onto you like a child. Maybe it was both. You make me think such things that make my mind shatter and my heart slowly turn black. Of course I blame myself, and never you. Why would I ever blame you? I was just as slow and thickheaded as you claimed me to be. I should have let go when I had the chance. To be hurt like this is something no one would want to experience in their lifetime, too bad I wasn’t one of those lucky ones.
~~~~~
I walked into the darkness of the cool midnight air. Fresh air helped me clear my head out while I had complications. The sounds of my boots hitting the cold cement ground made me remember how lonely it was…without you. I reached my hands out and cuffed my jacket and wrapped it around me, shivering. I sighed as I watched my breath drift off into the sky. I stuck my hand out into the air, I wonder how far the stars are away from me, how far you are away from me. I grasped the air, wishing that I caught the star in my palms and that it would forever be mine.
How far away could you be right now…
Can you hear my thoughts? My heart beating for you?
That day, if I had shouted “Yah!” or “Pabo!”, would you have turned around to look at me once more? Would I have seen that face that I’ve been longing for? I guess nothings for sure, but a man can always keep dreaming forever. It’s the only reason why my heart is still beating this moment…it’s the reason why my mind is still thinking rationally, and not acting like a complete fool drunk on sorrow. Forgive me at least before we part for the last time. Please try to let me know somehow that I’m not despised by you any longer. Any sign would do. I stood there with my head titled up towards the sky, hoping for something to happen. And yet my heart sunk once again, but I think it’s okay to say that I’ve seen that coming sooner or later.
~~~~~
My next destination was my final one as I say goodbye for the last time. I kneeled in front of your house as I held onto a jar. I hope you remember what this jar meant to the both of us. But it’s okay if you don’t, as I said before, I’d never blame you. My hands shook and my necklace clanged on the glass jar, making an echo in the ally next to me. I set the jar down and capped it up with the blue, glass lid. I reached into my pocket by my right chest and pulled out a picture with a note “goodbye” written on it.
I looked up suddenly as I heard footsteps trailing behind. It must be you, it must be. I quickly got up and ran into the dark ally, hiding myself from you. I peeked by the edge as I saw you pick up the jar I left on your doorsteps. You held it in your hands; you look speechless at the moment. I turned my head to face the brick wall that was in front of me, letting myself breathe. I heard a “pop” as you opened the jar and held the note in your hands. You picked up one of the stars from the glass jar and unraveled it. Reading the notes we wrote inside together. The memories we had together.
I gasped as you dropped to your knees. Your eyes sparkling in the moonlight, making the paper in your hands wet with tears. Are you crying because you remember? Are you crying because we left each other? Your hands tightened into fists as you leaned closer to the ground to pick up the picture you dropped. I hope you remember now…I hope the picture of us together still means something to you. I left the jar of stars for you to keep simply because it no longer belongs to me anymore. I’ve made a decision to let go, to simply keep quiet at the moment and walk away. It took me a while to realize this, but I think it’s done me a huge favor.
Fate is inevitable. It’s something you must accept and hold onto at all costs, cause by then, you’ll realize it’s the only thing you have left.
~~END~~
How was it? Good? Bad…? Hehe, haven’t wrote in a while. >w< But I’m back!
And I’m doing requests so leave a pairing and a genre in your comment if you want a fic from me :) I mite as well have something to work on in my spare time :]