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poptartassasin

Just Stop

Sep 06, 2004 01:38

As I sit here I can only hold my head in shame. I've done so much wrong is these past few days it's killing me. It's eating alive. All I want is some solidarity. Just a little bit of solidarity. I've destroyed the relationships that should mean me most to me. Oh my God I've fucked up. I don't know or understand how I can even hold my head high ( Read more... )

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adelaidejewel September 6 2004, 00:30:52 UTC

I love you so much-you know that. I don’t even really know what else to tell you. You mean so much to me. To tell you the truth, I don’t even really deserve you. I don’t deserve much of anything. I want you to be happy, though that probably won’t come soon enough. I’m really about to cry right now, but that’s ok, I guess, because that’s what I always do. I’m pretty convinced that God hates me right now because I can’t get to your journal to post this, so I’m typing it on Word. Sad, I know. I’m seriously just praying that livejournal will magically start working again, but it doesn’t seem to want to do that, of course. We can’t have anything going right in either of our lives, now can we? Well I suppose I’m used to God hating me anyway, so this shouldn’t be any surprise. I just want to hold you. I really, really do. I want everything to be better. It probably never will be. I don't really know. I'm a pessimist so I have no real faith in anything. I'm sorry for being so mean to you and causing you so much pain. I ( ... )

poptartassasin September 6 2004, 08:09:51 UTC

God doesn't hate you, God loves you. I love you. One day it will be better I promise and I will be there with you through it all. You mean so much to me and don't ever tell yourself you don't. I love you.

lucynthescky September 6 2004, 18:14:14 UTC

I care, but I have no clue how to help you. The only thing I've ever known to help is God. Trust him to help you.

poptartassasin September 7 2004, 13:46:18 UTC

Thanks, that means a lot coming from you.

I'm only going to say this once... usernumber12 September 23 2004, 18:24:56 UTC

Josh, I feel for you, I really do. I'm sorry you've got these problems and shit, but there is just one thing I need to clarify...If you continue this emo crap, I SWEAR I will bitch slap you. I think that it's only right that I keep you on the light side...well maybe it's the dark side...whatever side we're on. Again, I'm not saying I don't care, I'm just saying that if you start crying and writing shitty poems then I will bitch slap you.

Re: I'm only going to say this once... poptartassasin September 24 2004, 13:41:17 UTC

If you so much as lay a hand on me I will beat the ever loving piss out of you. I SWEAR I will, try me. I don't need you to direct me in any direction. I laid the pavement for this 'dark side' you claim to walk on and I haven't left yet. The only people that know what happened the night I wrote this (which was like more than two weeks ago...where the hell were you then?) are the only people that ever will know what went on, and that's only a very small few. So I decided to let it all out for once. Oooh I'm an emo kid now. No, and before you step up to call someone something derogatory make sure they can't kick up dirt in your face, like the fact that your pussywhipped (or so I hear). I've kept myself on track for a long time running and I always will, so to try and step in now just seems futile. I'm the same person I always have been and if I chose to momentarily express myself in writing I think I can stand firm in myself enough to do that. Do not fuck with me.

P.S. Last time I checked, you were the family poet.