I just typed an entire journal and then deleted it. That's how much this shit matters.

As I sit here I seem overcome with anger, depression and loneliness. I've drifted beyond all sense of reason and no matter how hard I try I can't seem to break myself of this. If I believe in crying I would be shedding tears right now but I hate crying so I don't. I'm going to go sit in my room and lay there. Lay there by myself. All by myself. No ( Read more... )

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O gee mom I'm sorry. How many other people have I let down today?

Dear God ( Read more... )

I updated twice in one day, big fucking deal. I sit here slowly sipping away at this glass of orange juice trying to cool myself down. Of course it does no good, nothing does. I hate pretending like everything is always alright because it isn't. I hate smiling and I hate it even more when I do it to cover up how I really feel. Fuck this stupid ( Read more... )

I don't see the point in updating Journal's on a frequent basis. I mean I don't understand the point in sitting down and typing up your day's schedule. You know what happened and it's probably not interesting to anyone else and that is the point of these Journals is to share your thoughts. Other people ARE going to read them and maybe (if they're ( Read more... )

Two post in a matter of two days. I surprise even myself sometimes. I frequently see quizzes on Journals and I usually don't read them. For some reason I randomly decided to put this quiz (which I stole from Brian's journal) on my Journal. Now I don't actually expect anyone to answer it but if you wouldn't mind taking about five minutes out of your ( Read more... )

I found this test on someone else's journal and it picked at my curiosity. I decided to take and these are the results I got. Take the test and see what 'disorders' you possess. You have to be completely honest though or the results will not be accurate.

DisorderRatingParanoid:HighSchizoid:HighSchizotypal:ModerateAntisocial:ModerateBorderline:Very ( Read more... )

Everyone knows what e-mail is (unless you're a deaf and dumb idiot). We all have e-mail. We all use e-mail. For a while I didn't have e-mail. I was stuck using my dad's e-mail address to send and receive messages. So finally I got my own e-mail address and I was somewhat glad but in reality it didn't really excite me that much (not much does in ( Read more... )