i think i am about to make a very big change in my life. in the next few weeks, i may be quitting my job. i am doing this to get a "nine to five" job. probably doing administrative office-y stuff. it will be boring and i won't enjoy it, but it will have a salary. i will know that every pay day, there will be x amount of dollars deposited into my ( Read more... )

adam started back to work tonight, so i have our little apartment to myself til he comes home at 7am. he works night shift here. ghey ( Read more... )

hawaii is amazing ( Read more... )

i don't update often when my boyfriend is home and life is going swimmingly ( Read more... )

i really just want him to be ok. i've tried going to sleep a couple times, but it's not working at all. i am too nervous. he doesn't deserve this at all. he's such a good person. he's such a good friend. i just want him to be alright.

i need to create something. i desperately want to just pick a medium and focus on it. i need to learn patience and i need to not only learn, but be okay with the fact, that things take time and that i will never be good at anything unless i practice. i feel like in life, my lack of patience is my ultimate downfall. i want to know how to do ( Read more... )

my stupid abandonment issues always get the best of me. i need to calm it down and not think so much sometimes. i did this the last time he was gone, and worried all the time, and never ate and felt like crap bc i was scared. and then it turned out to be a good thing for us, and life was wonderful. and this time, it came at a time where i actually ( Read more... )

spring has sprung. which in most cases is awesome, but it also triggers horrible migraines for me, which are not awesome. at all ( Read more... )

i can't take my mother. i don't know what to do anymore. there is no other way to respond. there is no other way to react. i just don't have a clue. i'm not allowed to talk to my sisters. my mom made an appointment with me so i would HAVE to talk to her. i told her that was inappopriate and i didn't appreciate it, and she got mad and cancelled it. ( Read more... )

when i am dead, my tombstone will more than likely read

sara farrell
shit could she hold a grudge.