dear derek ( Read more... )

the boys left monday. turns out their van needed a new engine. so they left it for scrap and flew home monday night. it was really sad coming home to an empty apartment. but they had to leave their trailer here. summer so far is doing a mini tour with them, so april 4-7, kristin and i are gonna drive down to savannah to bring the whole baltimore ( Read more... )

my a girl a gun a bros are here. five of the loves of my life. they arrived on tuesday. played a show in annapolis. i went straight from work but was still running late, so they traded spots with another band so i wouldn't miss their set <3. we realized we hadn't seen eachother since september. things are so much better with them. everything is ( Read more... )

rough day. i just want him to be okay. he doesn't deserve all this. i just wish it was over. i want him to be happy. i want him to be back to normal. i didn't wear any eye makeup bc i knew i would lose it. i kept it together for the most part until we hugged when it was over. as soon as i got in my car i let it out. there were 2 lines down my ( Read more... )

so i am in love with two houses right now ( Read more... )

so i have crunched numbers and pinched pennies and i can actually do this whole peru trip with adam. i am really really excited. the only eh is that the inca trail we're going on needs a passport number to book my space on it. and i don't have a passport right now. i applied for one and had it expedited,but it's still going to take 3-4 weeks. i ( Read more... )

i am distant, but share more with my friends than they ever share with me? the one exception being a time when i didn't know how to express what was going on. when i know they're having a bad time, i try to let them know i'm there for them. i attempt to make them feel better. but when i really needed them, it wasn't reciprocated. excuses excuses. ( Read more... )

i just finished making the rest of adam's valentine's day present and his card. i dunno if i'm overly emotional or what, but i had a couple happy tears while i was writing him a note in it. i can't get over how lucky i am, and how happy i am, and how in love i am. i've never really celebrated valentine's day with anyone, and i'm really happy that i ( Read more... )

saying the things you said show just what kind of "friend" you ever were.

there are people i don't expect to hear from bc of this. and if it's the reason for more friendships ending, so be it. i might as well get rid of all the bullshit now instead of drawing it out.

there are some things you can't take back.

adam and i are supposed to go to peru for 10 days in june. his best friend's wife is graduating vet school, and they're going to celebrate, so they invited us to go along. i have been really excited bc not only will it be our first vacation (after unsuccessfully attempting to plan one a couple times), but it's my first vacation in about 4-5 years. ( Read more... )