Comments | por_mi_llaneza: I will say this once, because thinking about it gives me a headache

por_mi_llaneza

I will say this once, because thinking about it gives me a headache

Oct 12, 2005 10:38

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poopninja October 12 2005, 12:00:50 UTC

hey i dont wanna be any trouble we could do something next week it's cool

por_mi_llaneza October 12 2005, 14:53:11 UTC

it's fine! we said we were gonna chill on friday, and we shall. i'm just trying to explain how i feel about all this. i want to spend more time with everyone, but i can't because of all this stuff.

poopninja October 12 2005, 14:54:58 UTC

but i want what's best for you baby
and if it means postponing our little meeting then so be it

por_mi_llaneza October 12 2005, 15:21:45 UTC

but... *sighs* oooookaaaay... you are so nice. are you absolutely positive that you are male????

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onyx_minerva October 12 2005, 21:11:36 UTC

well i would work things out.but if youve been hurt and called awfull things by the guy your dateing. well, i donno thats like a vegitarian marrying a butcher. but you know what death seems alot better. i honostally want to curl up in a little ball and die. im not trying to be melodramatic. but honostally all i can do when ever im not at school or work is cry. i havent slept in days cause im crying all night. something is wrong.

also you know how you and rachel bitched at me when i was being stupid and changing over a guy. i wish i could do the same. and just pleed with you to be the ericka we loved before that Ron kid. i honatally dont want to lose my best friend. if i did. i donno im sure i would die. i could lose anyone in the world eccpt you and rachel.

por_mi_llaneza October 13 2005, 05:49:25 UTC

i'm so sorry. i honestly don't know who i was before ron. i dunno if i can be like that again. everytime i try to be my old normal super happy self, i feel like i'm faking it. i simply don't feel like that all the time anymore. in fact, everytime something happens that's really good and i know that normally i would be flipping out with joy, i can only smile and be normal happy. and when nothing's going on, i don't feel like anything. i just exist.

maybe i have turned into this super depressing cynic. i'm sorry to everyone. i dunno what to do about it. i'm not quite sure of how to fix myself.

so i guess i'm just damaged goods.

poopninja October 13 2005, 11:56:40 UTC