Pictures from 2013 and Pictures from 2004.
STATS
Height: still 5'5"
Weight: 141-145 lbs
Mood: shit because my jeans don't fit.
B/P rate: averaging 4-5x/day, but @6x so far today.
Restricting: not currently, I'm mostly B/P-ing, like, a LOT.
So, I'm still fat, still unhappy, still cutting, still pretending everything is perfect. FML. As proof, here are some pics:
Fatty on a hike. At least I'm being active, I guess. But it's not making a difference bc I still huge.
Why why WHY are you wear white pants, you fat fuck???? OMIGOSH, wtf was I thinking??!
Me and someone skinnier and prettier.
But I almost look ok in this pic.
And while I was looking thru my old computer, which randomly decided to start up and run, I found some old pix, so here is another set of pics for you that I took back in the day (like ten years ago or something, or not quite). I call it: I miss my past:
NYU dorms.
Straight chillin at NYU dorms in the common areas.
My bed at NYU.
My room area at NYU.
My desk area at NYU.
Our window in dorms at NYU.
The entrance of my room area at NYU.
The convenience store/food area in the basement of my dorm building at NYU where I would use meal plan points to buy TONS of binge food to purge.
Seriously, I want my life back. I want the friends back that I had when I was at NYU, I want the body back that I had when I was at NYU, I want the activities, the job, the money back that I had when I was at NYU,I want to be tea sported back there. That was a good life.this life is shit.
Height: still 5'5"
Weight: 141-145 lbs
Mood: shit because my jeans don't fit.
B/P rate: averaging 4-5x/day, but @6x so far today.
Restricting: not currently, I'm mostly B/P-ing, like, a LOT.
So, I'm still fat, still unhappy, still cutting, still pretending everything is perfect. FML. As proof, here are some pics:
Fatty on a hike. At least I'm being active, I guess. But it's not making a difference bc I still huge.
Why why WHY are you wear white pants, you fat fuck???? OMIGOSH, wtf was I thinking??!
Me and someone skinnier and prettier.
But I almost look ok in this pic.
And while I was looking thru my old computer, which randomly decided to start up and run, I found some old pix, so here is another set of pics for you that I took back in the day (like ten years ago or something, or not quite). I call it: I miss my past:
NYU dorms.
Straight chillin at NYU dorms in the common areas.
My bed at NYU.
My room area at NYU.
My desk area at NYU.
Our window in dorms at NYU.
The entrance of my room area at NYU.
The convenience store/food area in the basement of my dorm building at NYU where I would use meal plan points to buy TONS of binge food to purge.
Seriously, I want my life back. I want the friends back that I had when I was at NYU, I want the body back that I had when I was at NYU, I want the activities, the job, the money back that I had when I was at NYU,I want to be tea sported back there. That was a good life.this life is shit.