I miss my therapist... He was a good therapist.. He laughed wtih me. He wrote me encouraging notes on pink post-its ( Read more... )

I'm having a harder time than normal.. I just wish I could breathe and catch my breath and get through this week.. I don't forsee a break in sight.. I'm pretty much giving up right now.. So.. yeah.. Sorry.

I can't decide what's more infuriating...

The fact that I'm still deeply hurt...
or
The fact that I still actually care and really shouldn't...
or..
The fact that I feel the need to apologize for them making me hurt so badly..
or..
The fact that I cried over it again tonight...
or..and I think this one is a biggie...
The fact that they don't ( Read more... )

Apparently if you're not Mormon you're not good enough. Got it.
Fuck you guys and your high fucking horse.
I'm glad that you think less of me because I haven't gone to school, because I haven't gotten married, and because I am not planning on reproducing.
Fuck you.

Don't you dare fucking try and contact me again. We're done.

Good fucking luck.

And wow I feel like an ass... Good job.

I don't think there's one thing in my life that is feeling remotely positive right now.. I don't think there is one thing that I am actually looking forward to right now. I don't think there's one person I want to see at all right now. This is an extremely dark feeling. I can't even look at pictures of puppies and kittens and feel a little more ( Read more... )

Once upon a time, I was skinny and beautiful and desired by people.. What the bloody hell happened ( Read more... )

So i cried... In the shower.. and the best thing about crying in the shower is you can't feel your tears so you don't know how hard you are crying.. Why was I crying? I'm crying because I'm afraid of going forward.. Afraid of tomorrow and the next day and the day after that. I'm afraid that the glimpses of strength I have are never going to stay ( Read more... )

Okay.. So ( Read more... )

I totally win the desperate psychotic clingy female award.

Just duck and run.