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So many emotions and so many songs that could possible describe them. Here are a few for those that care. They are in no specific order but I do have some thoughts about what emotions they bring up. Yes I have used them before but hey sue me, it's my journal so I can do what I please.....
"Sympathy"
I don't want nothing
Cause nothings all you give
And I don't need your touch
Cause that would be too much for me
I don't want your lies
Hurting deep inside of me
Look into my eyes
I don't want your sympathy
I should have known that it was over
It was different than before
As the love was turning colder
Now nothing lasts forever
As I said before I don't want your sympathy
No more
I don't want my love
To be misunderstood
So I think I'm giving up
I could never give enough away
I don't want your lies
Hurting deep inside of me
Look into my eyes
I don't want your sympathy
I should have known that it was over
It was different than before
As the love was turning colder
Now nothing lasts forever
As I said before I don't want your sympathy
No more
I don't want your sympathy
I don't need you here with me
I don't want your sympathy
I can't take it anymore
Cause I've heard it all before
I should have known that it was over
It was different than before
As the love was turning colder
Now nothing lasts forever
As I said before I don't want your sympathy
No more
Now nothing lasts forever
As I said before I don't want your sympathy
No more
Pretty much my feeling most of the day. I should be used to it by now right? Well It's a hard thing to get used to so until you have it happen to you every time you fall in love, don't think I'm not justified to be acting the way I am. I told you all about my feeling and once again it was correct. Love is just something that I can't have and fate loves to play with my love life as if it was a toy and as if I wasn't gonna get effect by it. My cuts are even deeper than before now. So don't even try to put salt in my wounds if you even have a soul or morals at that. Most of you could at least wait till my corpse is cold or something.
"Walk Away"
What do you do, when you know something is bad for you
But you still can't let go
I was naive, your love was like candy
Artificially sweet, I was deceived by the wrapping,
Got caught in your web and I learned how to bleed
I was prey in your bed and devoured completely
And it hurts my soul cause I can't let go all these walls are cavin' in
I can't stop my sufferin'
I hate to show that I've lost control 'cause I
I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need
To walk away from
I need to get away from ya, need to walk away from ya
Get away, walk away, walk away...
I should have known that I was used for amusement
Couldn't see through the smoke, it was all an illusion
Now I've been lickin' my woulds, but the venom seeps deeper
We both can seduce but darlin' you hold me prisoner
Oh I'm about to break, I can't stop this ache
I'm addicted to your allure, and I'm fiendin' for a cure
Every step I take leads to one mistake,
I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need
I'm about to break and I can't stop this ache, getting nothing in return
What did I do to deserve that pain of this slow burn
And everywhere I turn I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need
To walk away from
I need to get away from ya, need to walk away from ya
Get away, walk away, walk away...
Every time I try to grasp for air, I am smothered in despair it's never over, over
Seems I'll never wake from this nightmare, I let out silent pray
Let it be over, over
Inside I'm screaming, begging pleading no more
Now what to do, my heart has been bruised, so sad but it's true
Each beat reminds me of you
It hurts my soul
'cause I can't let go, all these walls are cavin' in
I can't stop my sufferin'
I hate to show that I lost control
Cause I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need, Oh
I'm about to break, and I can't stop this ache
I'm addicted to your allure and I'm fiending for a cure
Every step I take leads to one mistake,
I keep going right back to the one thing I need, oh
I can't mend, this torn state I'm in
Getting nothing in return what did I do to deserve
The pain of this slow burn
And everywhere I turn I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need to walk away from
I need to get away from ya, need to walk away from ya
Get away, walk away, walk away...
I need to get away from ya, need to walk away from ya
Get away, walk away, walk away...
I need to get away from ya, need to walk away from ya
Get away, walk away, walk away...
I need to get away from ya, need to walk away from ya
Get away, walk away, walk away...
Yes I should walk away and that's what I'm gonna do again. I'm walking away from it once again. It's addictive and that's all I can do to save me. I have to stop turning back to men that will never be good enough for me. Men that don't really LOVE me and just take me for granted. So it's me walking away and starting something else in my life. Good-bye love and happiness. Hello Alie, mistress of our own little Pussycat Dolls here.
"Ghost Of You And Me"
What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me everywhere
No matter what I do
Watching the candle flicker out
In the evening glow
I can't let go
When will the night be over
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name
For what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
Seen a lot of broken hearts
Go sailing by
Phantom ships lost at sea
And one of them is mine
Raising my glass
I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name
For what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left
Of my heart and soul
Watching the candle flicker out
In the evening glow
I can't let go
When will the night be over
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name
For what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
Story of my love life so far. Great huh? ELiza's gonna kill me for listening to it once again but what else can I do when my walls come crashing down on me once again? *shrugs* One person, one women, one young lady can only endure so much before all hope is lost. Perhaps I'm getting to that point now.
"Never Again"
Would have given up my life for you
Guess it's true what they say about love
It's blind
Boy, you lied straight to my face
Looking in my eyes
And I believed you 'cause I loved you more than life
And all you had to do
Was apologize
You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the girl
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me, again
No, no, no, no, no, no
Sadness has me at the end of the line
Helpless watched you break this heart of mine
And loneliness only wants you back here with me
Common sense knows that you're not good enough for me
And all you had to do
Was apologize, and mean it
But you didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the girl
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me
It's like hell I could go back in time
Maybe then I could see how
Forgiveness says that I should give you one more try
But it's too late, it's over now
You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the girl
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me
Again
Again, yeah, yeah
Again, again, again, yeah, yeah, yeah
Never get to love me
Yeah I changed a few of the words but if you haven't noticed this song has been playing constantly on my stereo. I feel the song and it speaks me to. I listen to it everyday and each time it has more feeling and meaning to me. The two men in my life that I have loved completely and given my soul and world to have broken and scarred me for life and to pick up the piece once again is hard for me and I must do it. Even if that means turning my back to all of my friend and people that actually do love me, so be it. My happiness once again has come in second to everyone else. Poor Natalie she's an easy target let's screw her over once again and perhaps she will kill herself off and make us all happy.
Tough luck...The bitch is here to stay
Enough from me tonight. I need to get some rest before I start my Pussycat Dolls practices.
We are still taking members and clients. Let Alie (me), Lexi (Xtina), Nikki (Willa) and our recent member (P!nk) service you in anyway. Just give us a ring and we'll be sure to do our best for you.
Ciao
"Sympathy"
I don't want nothing
Cause nothings all you give
And I don't need your touch
Cause that would be too much for me
I don't want your lies
Hurting deep inside of me
Look into my eyes
I don't want your sympathy
I should have known that it was over
It was different than before
As the love was turning colder
Now nothing lasts forever
As I said before I don't want your sympathy
No more
I don't want my love
To be misunderstood
So I think I'm giving up
I could never give enough away
I don't want your lies
Hurting deep inside of me
Look into my eyes
I don't want your sympathy
I should have known that it was over
It was different than before
As the love was turning colder
Now nothing lasts forever
As I said before I don't want your sympathy
No more
I don't want your sympathy
I don't need you here with me
I don't want your sympathy
I can't take it anymore
Cause I've heard it all before
I should have known that it was over
It was different than before
As the love was turning colder
Now nothing lasts forever
As I said before I don't want your sympathy
No more
Now nothing lasts forever
As I said before I don't want your sympathy
No more
Pretty much my feeling most of the day. I should be used to it by now right? Well It's a hard thing to get used to so until you have it happen to you every time you fall in love, don't think I'm not justified to be acting the way I am. I told you all about my feeling and once again it was correct. Love is just something that I can't have and fate loves to play with my love life as if it was a toy and as if I wasn't gonna get effect by it. My cuts are even deeper than before now. So don't even try to put salt in my wounds if you even have a soul or morals at that. Most of you could at least wait till my corpse is cold or something.
"Walk Away"
What do you do, when you know something is bad for you
But you still can't let go
I was naive, your love was like candy
Artificially sweet, I was deceived by the wrapping,
Got caught in your web and I learned how to bleed
I was prey in your bed and devoured completely
And it hurts my soul cause I can't let go all these walls are cavin' in
I can't stop my sufferin'
I hate to show that I've lost control 'cause I
I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need
To walk away from
I need to get away from ya, need to walk away from ya
Get away, walk away, walk away...
I should have known that I was used for amusement
Couldn't see through the smoke, it was all an illusion
Now I've been lickin' my woulds, but the venom seeps deeper
We both can seduce but darlin' you hold me prisoner
Oh I'm about to break, I can't stop this ache
I'm addicted to your allure, and I'm fiendin' for a cure
Every step I take leads to one mistake,
I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need
I'm about to break and I can't stop this ache, getting nothing in return
What did I do to deserve that pain of this slow burn
And everywhere I turn I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need
To walk away from
I need to get away from ya, need to walk away from ya
Get away, walk away, walk away...
Every time I try to grasp for air, I am smothered in despair it's never over, over
Seems I'll never wake from this nightmare, I let out silent pray
Let it be over, over
Inside I'm screaming, begging pleading no more
Now what to do, my heart has been bruised, so sad but it's true
Each beat reminds me of you
It hurts my soul
'cause I can't let go, all these walls are cavin' in
I can't stop my sufferin'
I hate to show that I lost control
Cause I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need, Oh
I'm about to break, and I can't stop this ache
I'm addicted to your allure and I'm fiending for a cure
Every step I take leads to one mistake,
I keep going right back to the one thing I need, oh
I can't mend, this torn state I'm in
Getting nothing in return what did I do to deserve
The pain of this slow burn
And everywhere I turn I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need to walk away from
I need to get away from ya, need to walk away from ya
Get away, walk away, walk away...
I need to get away from ya, need to walk away from ya
Get away, walk away, walk away...
I need to get away from ya, need to walk away from ya
Get away, walk away, walk away...
I need to get away from ya, need to walk away from ya
Get away, walk away, walk away...
Yes I should walk away and that's what I'm gonna do again. I'm walking away from it once again. It's addictive and that's all I can do to save me. I have to stop turning back to men that will never be good enough for me. Men that don't really LOVE me and just take me for granted. So it's me walking away and starting something else in my life. Good-bye love and happiness. Hello Alie, mistress of our own little Pussycat Dolls here.
"Ghost Of You And Me"
What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me everywhere
No matter what I do
Watching the candle flicker out
In the evening glow
I can't let go
When will the night be over
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name
For what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
Seen a lot of broken hearts
Go sailing by
Phantom ships lost at sea
And one of them is mine
Raising my glass
I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name
For what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left
Of my heart and soul
Watching the candle flicker out
In the evening glow
I can't let go
When will the night be over
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name
For what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
Story of my love life so far. Great huh? ELiza's gonna kill me for listening to it once again but what else can I do when my walls come crashing down on me once again? *shrugs* One person, one women, one young lady can only endure so much before all hope is lost. Perhaps I'm getting to that point now.
"Never Again"
Would have given up my life for you
Guess it's true what they say about love
It's blind
Boy, you lied straight to my face
Looking in my eyes
And I believed you 'cause I loved you more than life
And all you had to do
Was apologize
You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the girl
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me, again
No, no, no, no, no, no
Sadness has me at the end of the line
Helpless watched you break this heart of mine
And loneliness only wants you back here with me
Common sense knows that you're not good enough for me
And all you had to do
Was apologize, and mean it
But you didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the girl
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me
It's like hell I could go back in time
Maybe then I could see how
Forgiveness says that I should give you one more try
But it's too late, it's over now
You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the girl
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me
Again
Again, yeah, yeah
Again, again, again, yeah, yeah, yeah
Never get to love me
Yeah I changed a few of the words but if you haven't noticed this song has been playing constantly on my stereo. I feel the song and it speaks me to. I listen to it everyday and each time it has more feeling and meaning to me. The two men in my life that I have loved completely and given my soul and world to have broken and scarred me for life and to pick up the piece once again is hard for me and I must do it. Even if that means turning my back to all of my friend and people that actually do love me, so be it. My happiness once again has come in second to everyone else. Poor Natalie she's an easy target let's screw her over once again and perhaps she will kill herself off and make us all happy.
Tough luck...The bitch is here to stay
Enough from me tonight. I need to get some rest before I start my Pussycat Dolls practices.
We are still taking members and clients. Let Alie (me), Lexi (Xtina), Nikki (Willa) and our recent member (P!nk) service you in anyway. Just give us a ring and we'll be sure to do our best for you.
Ciao