I'm back in the states. It was quite fun to be abroad with.....I forgot, I can't say his name. If it all works out I'll tell you his name. He's a great guy though so wish me luck ( Read more... )

Even in a beautiful country with a great guy, the past still haunts a person. I have been spending some time with a wonderful man...I choose to keep his name a secret till I know that I won't fuck this possible great thing in my life up, as I always do. I was looking out on the sunset and memories of the two men I ever really loved came over me ( Read more... )

I'm back in NYC. It's actually nice to be back in my own place too. I did spend some time in LA to visit Ryan. *works it* We had fun. I think I'll need to get back there. I actually am liking it there but NYC is still home to me. I was at the VMAs and I was trying to be like sneaky and all but I guess someone spotted me. I have new articles ( Read more... )

I'm alive and well....or at least I think so. I'm taking a break from filming for the next few days. Don't get me wrong, I love spending time with Hayden and everyone on the crew but I need Nat time again. I'm thinking of spending some time back on Paradise Island. I still have that villa on the beach ( Read more... )

Okay Hayden just ran into my trailer and showed me the newest issue of FHM. I'm apparently on their list of 100 Sexiest Women in the World 2003.

59. Natalie Portman
Royal highnessLast year: 48 ( Read more... )

It's a beautiful day today. Just wish that Hayden would come out and play with me. He's not the Hayden I remember. He's boring someone needs to get that boy to loosen up and I just might be the girl to do it. It's about time we get back to the days of how we used to run around and be silly. Who's with me? I think it's time for the fun to ( Read more... )

It feels very good to have it all done. I'm a graduate now. Nat is a smartie. I'm off to start filming again. I get to have with Hayden again. How lucky can a girl get. Hayden is great and I missed him ( Read more... )

Guess what today is.........

It's my birthday.

*does a little dance*

Yes, I'm happy. Why? Who knows.

Thinking of start my dances again. thinking over getting a new boyfriend too.

What you all think about that? Never could hold a boyfriend for long but I'll keep trying to the end.

Ciao

My birthday is coming up once soon and Jake hasn't been calling me. I'm starting to get worried on what is going on. I'm getting ready to fly off once again to some set. I'm a traveler you know. i should be checking in from time to time. Maybe the silence is a sign. Who knows.

Much Love,

Nat

Nat is sick. I have to still take my finals and all but I have come down with a slight cold. Jake has been away filming The Day After Tomorrow. We have also been trying to move his things into my apartment this past week. Yeah you heard right. Jake is moving in with me. I know what you are thinking but hey I'm a big girl and I can share my bed ( Read more... )