it's rather frustrating, that regardless of our actions, things can still happen that remain completely out of our control. i guess it's only frustrating when these things that happen are negative. it's wonderful when we've been sitting on our ass do absolutely nothing to better ourselves or grow and we just happen upon a stroke of good luck. it's ( Read more... )

there have certainly been a surplus of posts recently, particularily relative to the status of one's life, so i have decided, i just MUST follow with the trend ( Read more... )

I WILL EAT YOU

neurosis. amazing.

life is beautiful.

i am so happy.

oh dear.

changes and transition.

all so overwhelming.

i have several new years resolutions

1) stay sober
2) do not force a relationship and embrace singledom
3) get a new job (already looks like its happening hooray)
4) move back to the city (FUCK MOUNTLAKE TERRACE)

anyways...

how are you doing?

i wish i could fit my words in that precise way that makes me warmer. some of your are so talented. i am simply inefficient.

last night i wanted to drink so i did. fortunately it was three venti drips. ha! helllla cracked out today.

life is strange.

i like it.

what i dont like is money. i really don't like money.

yeah so club pop was amazing. le castlevania (www.myspace.com/castlevaniadisco) so terrific. got invited to the after party at the mercury which was a blast. the were serving alcohol after 2 (not that it mattered to me ha) and you could smoke inside the club. to say the least my body has been sore since, from dancing till 5 in the morning ( Read more... )

wooo. club pop tonight. free for me. anyways. today was an amazing day. yes i worked 11 hours. but it was an amazing 11 hours. tomorrow im doing the same thing. feels good.

bah. stupid alcoholism and it's affecting the people i love. if i could have one wish, it would be that there was no such disease ( Read more... )

this domestic lifestyle is wearing me thin. i think i need a bit of spontaneity. what in the world can i do tomorrow that would fulfill my desire to embrace my insanity for a few hours? i get off at 5 dammit. i know this city too well, all the neighborhoods, all the streets. dammit ( Read more... )

life is good. and my mind is too fragmented to write coherently. i apologize ( Read more... )