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I. PLAYER INFORMATION
Name: Nic
Are you over the age of 16: Yes!
LiveJournal: bangafewgongs
E-MAIL: nicci.coombs@gmail.com
OTHER: trolololololings (AIM)
II. CHARACTER INFORMATION
Character Name: Dean Winchester
Canon: Supernatural
Timeline: Season 5, episode 5x22. (Swan Song) The season finale. Dean has been living with Lisa for a week canonically.
History: CANON WIKI LINK FOR DEAN-O.
From a very young age Dean was the self proclaimed man of the house hold. Before he could long divide he was taking care of situations at home and picking up the pieces of his parents mistakes. His father and his mother had their share of differences and it seemed even as a toddler Dean was cleaning up John's messes and taking care of a very pregnant Mary, at least to the best of his tender abilities. Still, a driven man can still be very close to a man possessed and John was never home to tend to Mary's needs, it made it hard for the youthful Dean to get any sense or semblance of a childhood and there was always the constant fear of him not returning so Dean took it upon himself to comfort his mother and eventually his little brother Sam. For this being a solace to him at such a young age it never quite left his personality, and even after his mother was murdered in cold blood when he was four he continued taking that responsibility and putting the families baggage onto his shoulders. Their father with a guilty conscience eventually hit the road to find what had killed his wife and dragged his two sons along, leaving Dean in control of his brother which he took seriously. The two had a bond unrivalled by most other families and even though they distanced as they grew older Sam was still the first person that he came to when his father went missing.
It took the brothers two years of hunting and jobs, things they'd gathered from their father's journals and assigned longitudes and latitudes before they rekindled what they had with their father. They didn't get along at first, Sam had become a refined young man and Dean was still the brother that stepped in line and did what he was told. Sam had left to tackle his own goals, things that had nothing to do with the atrociousness of the supernatural world and because of their apparent differences the two ended up butting heads more than they truly got along. With that roadblock there, though, it was still obvious to them both that they were meant to do this, that they were brothers and their differences could never change that. When Dean lost Sam to the trials involving the rest of Azazel's children, he couldn't sit with himself. He had to take it into his own hands... and he sold himself at a crossroads to bring the younger Winchester back. The news only becoming clear to him part way through the year of his expiration date and then Sam took it upon himself to change his fate, even acquiring the help of a demon named Ruby who's creed he was told never to trust. In the end, the plight was useless, and Dean was dragged into the pit by the hounds. Sam as you'd imagine didn't take the news well at all.
In the some months that Dean spent suffering in the pit, forty years because of time alterations, Sam delved deeper into his own depression and began a sexual relationship with the demon that had once helped them. It was fueled by embibing her blood and the power that doing so gave him, and after Dean was peeled from the pit by the angels themselves he took the news hard. Attacking them both and outwardly stating his distrust and his issue with everything. The news of the existence of angels came later, and he swore an oath to help their plight, through Castiel who had become his gaurdian.
Not even the angels could stop them from opening all of the seals and releasing Lucifer, and as the end drew nearer the relationship of the trio grew more turbulent. Dean and Sam had full out separated for weeks and done their own things. Dean continued hunting and Sam became a bus boy. Zachariah, one of the angels, presented Dean with his future. One full of things he'd never want for himself and never want for Sam and the world. The painful knowledge of these facts caused the boys to attempt rebuilding their relationship. Though things were still tense Dean soldiered through them in a desperate plea to save the world that he felt was in danger because of his choices. When the four horsemen were released it was by word of Gabriel, who they'd formerly known as a Trickster, that they devised a plan to stop Lucifer. He couldn't be harmed by the colt which they'd set out to find since the beginning to stop him but with the four rings of all the horsemen combined his cage could be opened and closed. They collected the first three with some difficulty but Dean unable to kill Death was forced to make a deal with him that he'd rather not and his brother Sam would have to say yes to Lucifer to trap him in the cage. Dean tried in Detroit to usher him in and failed. His brother Adam who became the archangel's vessel instead of Dean himself met Lucifer in his home Lawrence, Kansas in Michael's guise and Dean intervened by rolling the impala up to speak to his brother and be there for him in his hour of need. Castiel gave Dean the time to speak with them but was brutalized immediately by Lucifer for it being at the expense of Michael, Bobby was killed shortly after, and it was in pleading with Sam through Lucifer that he'd be there for him through even this that his brother was able to reign control. He walked into the pit then, pulled Michael within Adam along with him, and everything for Dean became rushing silence. Lucifer had beaten Dean within inches of his life and he could only manage to crawl over to where the cage had been open to mourn his brothers and friends.
Although Castiel returned by the power of God, healed Dean and brought Bobby back with him, the hunter still had to witness everyone die in front of him. It was a promise he made to Sam that had him driving back to Cicero to live with Lisa and Ben but he wasn't really yet whole inside, his time with them there persists.
Personality:
Dean is a hard one to decipher because he’s so fluently changing all of the time. One moment he may appear to you as completely approachable and friendly and at another time he might radiate the need to be left alone. A lot of that has to do with the fact that he’s rapidly adapting to the environment and situations that he’s being placed in, the rest is more focused toward the reality that he never really had the experience of socially adjusting anywhere. Dean was always on the move and he didn’t believe in long term friendships and bonds that extended past family until he was almost twenty-nine. He’s not an enigma he’s just gotten used to being the “foggy” guy in the room and he's never gone out of his way to change that. It’s still questionable as to whether he’s unsure of himself and where he in fact lies in all of this, if it’s his more definitive personality, or, what he’d like himself to be. Dean doesn’t keep to one standardized image and tends to vary between his personality flaws and habits.
The man is stubborn and biased when it comes to his own belief systems, he prefers to think that his opinions and his assumptions are resolute simply because he’s had to rely on only himself for so very long. It’s not an issue of elitism, he just knows his ideas and evaluations to be true in 90% of the situations that he’s faced. It doesn’t mean he’ll immediately cast aside an offering of ideas or leads but he’s one to always want and have the final say in expressing and acting upon them. This mule headed tactic is often involved in his social connections and family relations as well. Dean doesn’t like to surrender himself in an argument and won’t bend to anyone’s will. History has proven the only two to successfully get him to put aside his idea of the way things should be are his brother and his father, and even that wasn't without a struggle. Dean isn't fond of peer pressure or others swaying him into doing what they think is more preferable and has even gone so far as to do the exact opposite of their wishes if he doesn’t agree with it. His views on himself and the supernatural world (vampires, werewolves, ghosts, demons, and angels) are treated very much the same. It's not without heavy evidence supporting another theory or standpoint that he'll relinquish his opinionated high ground.
Always the prideful creature, whether it comes to just his ideals or people that he respects he can’t see wrong in feeling the way he does about them. Dean behaves like he’s the greatest thing since sliced bread; he carries that ego in his posture as well as in the bridge of his shoulders and is so open about it that it's become very evident. He’s no stranger to what he’s done for everyone and everything and even though the aftermath has dropped this pig headedness down a great degree, it’s still there and true. He's learned to value himself as a person despite the scorn that he has for his mistakes and with people like Sam and Castiel feeding into his ego when he’s doing things right and taking steps in the correct direction the attitude has never really died.
The hunter has a knack for making a crude comment or sardonic joke in the midst of a tense or emotionally stressful situation. While some might contribute this to immaturity in many ways it’s a coping mechanism. Dean doesn’t have time to take every heavy psychological blow that’s thrown at him and instead of allowing it he’ll turn it into a joke to make it easier for himself to deal with. He does this fairly often, despite circumstance, and it’s gotten to be a regular part of his personality.
It's not obvious at all or ever admitted but Dean’s very insecure, not just about himself, and not about anything physical… but more so emotionally. His time in hell showed him just how liable he was to snap, that he wasn’t made of stone and cement and that he could be broken. The mistakes that followed were like below the belt hits and he carried those feelings with him for a very long time, buried inside and not mentioned until the finality of everything finally started to make the walls that he’d set up crumble. His time there showed him that he too could snap under pressure and be made into something monstrous (like the things he hunts) and it haunts him, the failure there reminds him of the horrible things he is capable of as much as he never brings them up or admits to it. He’s attempted to mentally separate himself from that side of who he is but he knows that it’s still there and it’s still a plausible piece of him and that realization hurts.
Outwardly, he may appear almost vainglorious in his reactions to people and things. Inwardly, this certainly isn’t the case. Dean is genuine in what he does and says despite the fact that he tries to shroud this part of himself away. It's with cocky superiority and incandescent sarcasm that he keeps the real struggle with who he is, and his trials and tribulations well hidden. He's always been good about keeping himself calm in the face of danger or distress and is very used to facing impending doom and severe situations. Throughout his experience with them he’s learned indefinitely to treat them with a placid recognition. He’s calm, smooth talking, deliberate in everything that he does in these circumstances and in many ways it helps him carry on through them. He doesn’t lose his head as easily and he’s better about accepting the ammunition that’s thrown at him when he’s involved in them. On that same note, Dean can’t be shot down when it comes to being involved in such an issue or situation. He’s head strong, strong willed, and determined. He can’t be diverted from what he’s doing and he won’t stop with it until he’s reached his goals and the priorities he had for what he’s dealing with. It takes death or near death to coerce Dean away from something he’s actively participating in or fighting. He’ll carry out an order or a task until it’s completely finished. He's never liked leaving things hanging and this is only supported by the fact that he’s never left a case at home open ended and always treks trough it until he’s completely finished, no matter how much the circumstances might bother him.
Regardless of how he feels about himself, or about something that he’s involved in, Dean is heroic and altruistic. He’ll put his life on the line to ensure the safety of another person or that they’re freed from whatever is tying them down. He spends hours of his time looking into the things that he’s facing and working against so that he has a better chance of defeating it and saving the people that are involved. You could say the hunter is more cunning than he lets on, that he plays his stupid and arrogant jock routine to divert people away from the fact, but the things supporting this lack of intellect are usually replaced by the excess of street smarts and survival skills that he has in spades. While Dean certainly isn't well versed in book learning and has no college degree he's ahead of most when it comes to simply living and brilliant in his line of work.
Dean at the utmost doesn’t want any casualties, each loss is like a heavy emotional blow to him and he has problems handling that. He’s driven, he’ll do whatever it takes to make sure the situation goes as planned and that his goals and priorities (which are mostly saving everyone that he can) are attained. Dean’s seen and lost a lot in his life and he goes out of his way to make sure that he doesn’t have to add to the body count or the list of failures that he’s had to endure. Despite his thick skin and his ability to carry on through situations that would put most people in a straight jacket, somewhere inside of Dean lies self-doubt, a mass of insecurity, and resentment toward his own choices. Because he’s always burying how he’s feeling the emotional lapses that show this part of him happen in violent bursts. He covets and he scorns for his own needs and he’s human despite the magnificent façade. Inside of him there’s an internal war, and there always had been, even as he was in the midst of a more tangible battle. Dean hardly lets this piece of him win him over and it’s often only when something very traumatic has happened that people see this sensitivity and mournful acceptance of who he is and who he’s become. It takes quite a bit of prodding and analyzing to notice that the stern soldier isn’t what he often pretends to be, or that there’s more layers to him than just the tough jock with a sense of humor that he wants everyone else to see. He’s multifaceted and capable of being just as insecure as he is flamboyantly confident.
It’s not easy to say whether or not Dean is who he claims to be, who he is internally, or everything therein. He’s adaptable, above anything, and changes with circumstance. He’s the kind of man you meet four years prior at the worst of his luck and then see again another three later on top of his game. There are pieces of Dean that are overall too simple to fit under the definition of ambiguous, though it's one that comes to mind more often than not, especially in the company of normal people. He's mysterious, he's intriguing, and he's hard to read. Dean is an ever changing Labyrinth of cryptic personality traits and emotional responses. The composure that he displays is never exact.
In his 32 years of life he's been through a lot, seen a lot, and witnessed a lot of things a normal person wouldn't be able to tolerate without serious mental backlash. He's learned to remain stoic in harsh environments and situations and keep a tight jaw and focus on the matter at hand. In his experiences and history it's this that's kept him the most resolute as a person, without the addition of his social confidants, teammates, and family. Dean is goal oriented and in serious situations even organized (despite not being that way in leisurely matters) he knows how to work a plan and his instinct and intuition are sparkling examples of his ability to remain level headed and remove himself from other people's opinions should a circumstance go down the wrong road. He approaches everything with an almost careful calm, he's attentive to change, and he wants to learn despite his coming off as being more involved in himself and his own needs.
Brought up in a strict militant lifestyle Dean always played the part of a good little soldier to his father's directions. With the training and expectations John Winchester held for his two sons Dean was blessed with a knowledge of most beings of supernatural origin and the innate talent to wield most weaponry. In his years of experience both with John and without he built up a huge tolerance to pain, able to withstand more than an average person, and magnificent bodily endurance. To cope with what he was seeing as a child, and what he had to deal with as a young adult, Dean resides himself to a Rambo like appeal in the midst of hunts and bad circumstance and has learned to shroud himself from the things that might tamper with what he has to do or get done in the relative here and now.
Dean, while speaking English primarily is also educated in both old scripture-based Latin and Enochian. It's nowhere near his most amicable strength and at times he's liable to not enunciate correctly and therefore skew whatever incantation, spell, or chant he's doing... but it is a knowledge that he has attained and knows how to use himself. Enochian, being more represented by symbols than the actual language itself.
Physically Dean has shown weakness to emotional situations and the memories of his past. He doesn't sleep well, most always having nightmares and it makes him irritable, angry, and promises the inevitable mistake. He's terrified of planes and plane rides. While it doesn't state in canon beyond "planes" that he's afraid of heights it's obviously tied into not having control of the situation or lack of control in what he's venturing into, a problem most people experience with roller coasters and sky diving- utilities for enjoyment. Dean has a small equivalent to a Jerry Maguire complex. Despite his isolative and closed off nature Dean cannot be alone. He needs to have the companionship of someone, anyone, or he'll fall into self destructive and self sabotaging tendencies- also of which is a large fault of his.
As said above, Dean is heavily repressed, and while it may serve him in harder situations this is also a flaw because he's seized himself emotionally to such an extent that he can't show his true colors in the appropriate situations and buries everything to a degree that's so overwhelming, that when he's at a breaking point or facing anything that opens him up to sensitive scrutiny, he snaps. He breaks and he falls into either fits of volatile rage or horrible agonizing bouts of depression.
A tangible and living shortcoming of his would be his family, Sam, most importantly. The brothers raised each other while John paid them negligence in his attempt to vindicate their mother, Mary. Sam is the person he's closest to and dependent on to as mentioned many times in canon, unhealthy psychological and emotional levels. He values Bobby Singer (a social contact that became a lot like a surrogate father to him) to a much lesser but still very visible extent, and he handles him differently. The same could be said for the Harvelles and his friend and savior, Castiel.
Beyond this, Dean has a very visible crutch-type attachment to alcohol and food. He's indulgent and gluttonous with both of them. Obviously, for different reasons. He uses liquor as a coping mechanism and food of any kind (call him a food enthusiast) as an emotional pick-me-up. He's also very well attached to his play boys, using sex and foreplay as instant gratification between jobs and a way to feel good despite the heinous battle he's fighting in whatever circumstance he's forced to face. It's a way to feel connected to someone without the emotional baggage in his mind.
Retained Abilities: As mentioned in the personality Dean has a wide range of knowledge when it comes to weapons, an enhanced sense of endurance, and a very high threshold for pain.
III. SAMPLES
First Person Sample:
[The video display comes on at an upward angle over Dean's shoulders and neckline, he looks a little worse for wear with scruff on his chin that hide no tells that he hasn't been able to find time to shave for a while.] Just checkin' if there's life out there..... on this thing. It's pretty crazy out there, and I thought I wouldn't have to deal with any mass hysteria or outbreaks when I hit the sack the previous morning.
[He swallows, adjusts one shoulder in a half rotate that punctuates how uncomfortable he is using the device to begin with.] My name's Jerry Wanek... I'm a mechanic from Illinois.
[His eyes move off screen for a moment as he chooses his next words carefully, he's reflective for a moment, and fixes his face into one of understanding before going on.] If anyone's out there listening you're not alone, and I'm gonna do my best find you guys.
[The fiddling with the screen is a little clear as he's trying to turn it off.] Yeah. Okay.
... Signing off. [The screen goes dark.]
III 1/2. ALTERNATE SAMPLES
WRITTEN NETWORK POST FOR PARADISA. (Arrival)
VIDEO ENTRY AT IL PROM FOR HIS BIRTHDAY.
WRITTEN NETWORK POST FOR TWILIGHT ZONE RPG.
Several threads here on D_M.
Third Person Sample:
A third person log set with Sam a summer after the Season 5 finale. (It's AU in that Dean opened a roadhouse instead of doing construction and before I caught any of Season 6 so it's not to key, but still very IC in both my writing and the person I'm playing with.)
A log post from IL PROM.
Name: Nic
Are you over the age of 16: Yes!
LiveJournal: bangafewgongs
E-MAIL: nicci.coombs@gmail.com
OTHER: trolololololings (AIM)
II. CHARACTER INFORMATION
Character Name: Dean Winchester
Canon: Supernatural
Timeline: Season 5, episode 5x22. (Swan Song) The season finale. Dean has been living with Lisa for a week canonically.
History: CANON WIKI LINK FOR DEAN-O.
From a very young age Dean was the self proclaimed man of the house hold. Before he could long divide he was taking care of situations at home and picking up the pieces of his parents mistakes. His father and his mother had their share of differences and it seemed even as a toddler Dean was cleaning up John's messes and taking care of a very pregnant Mary, at least to the best of his tender abilities. Still, a driven man can still be very close to a man possessed and John was never home to tend to Mary's needs, it made it hard for the youthful Dean to get any sense or semblance of a childhood and there was always the constant fear of him not returning so Dean took it upon himself to comfort his mother and eventually his little brother Sam. For this being a solace to him at such a young age it never quite left his personality, and even after his mother was murdered in cold blood when he was four he continued taking that responsibility and putting the families baggage onto his shoulders. Their father with a guilty conscience eventually hit the road to find what had killed his wife and dragged his two sons along, leaving Dean in control of his brother which he took seriously. The two had a bond unrivalled by most other families and even though they distanced as they grew older Sam was still the first person that he came to when his father went missing.
It took the brothers two years of hunting and jobs, things they'd gathered from their father's journals and assigned longitudes and latitudes before they rekindled what they had with their father. They didn't get along at first, Sam had become a refined young man and Dean was still the brother that stepped in line and did what he was told. Sam had left to tackle his own goals, things that had nothing to do with the atrociousness of the supernatural world and because of their apparent differences the two ended up butting heads more than they truly got along. With that roadblock there, though, it was still obvious to them both that they were meant to do this, that they were brothers and their differences could never change that. When Dean lost Sam to the trials involving the rest of Azazel's children, he couldn't sit with himself. He had to take it into his own hands... and he sold himself at a crossroads to bring the younger Winchester back. The news only becoming clear to him part way through the year of his expiration date and then Sam took it upon himself to change his fate, even acquiring the help of a demon named Ruby who's creed he was told never to trust. In the end, the plight was useless, and Dean was dragged into the pit by the hounds. Sam as you'd imagine didn't take the news well at all.
In the some months that Dean spent suffering in the pit, forty years because of time alterations, Sam delved deeper into his own depression and began a sexual relationship with the demon that had once helped them. It was fueled by embibing her blood and the power that doing so gave him, and after Dean was peeled from the pit by the angels themselves he took the news hard. Attacking them both and outwardly stating his distrust and his issue with everything. The news of the existence of angels came later, and he swore an oath to help their plight, through Castiel who had become his gaurdian.
Not even the angels could stop them from opening all of the seals and releasing Lucifer, and as the end drew nearer the relationship of the trio grew more turbulent. Dean and Sam had full out separated for weeks and done their own things. Dean continued hunting and Sam became a bus boy. Zachariah, one of the angels, presented Dean with his future. One full of things he'd never want for himself and never want for Sam and the world. The painful knowledge of these facts caused the boys to attempt rebuilding their relationship. Though things were still tense Dean soldiered through them in a desperate plea to save the world that he felt was in danger because of his choices. When the four horsemen were released it was by word of Gabriel, who they'd formerly known as a Trickster, that they devised a plan to stop Lucifer. He couldn't be harmed by the colt which they'd set out to find since the beginning to stop him but with the four rings of all the horsemen combined his cage could be opened and closed. They collected the first three with some difficulty but Dean unable to kill Death was forced to make a deal with him that he'd rather not and his brother Sam would have to say yes to Lucifer to trap him in the cage. Dean tried in Detroit to usher him in and failed. His brother Adam who became the archangel's vessel instead of Dean himself met Lucifer in his home Lawrence, Kansas in Michael's guise and Dean intervened by rolling the impala up to speak to his brother and be there for him in his hour of need. Castiel gave Dean the time to speak with them but was brutalized immediately by Lucifer for it being at the expense of Michael, Bobby was killed shortly after, and it was in pleading with Sam through Lucifer that he'd be there for him through even this that his brother was able to reign control. He walked into the pit then, pulled Michael within Adam along with him, and everything for Dean became rushing silence. Lucifer had beaten Dean within inches of his life and he could only manage to crawl over to where the cage had been open to mourn his brothers and friends.
Although Castiel returned by the power of God, healed Dean and brought Bobby back with him, the hunter still had to witness everyone die in front of him. It was a promise he made to Sam that had him driving back to Cicero to live with Lisa and Ben but he wasn't really yet whole inside, his time with them there persists.
Personality:
Dean is a hard one to decipher because he’s so fluently changing all of the time. One moment he may appear to you as completely approachable and friendly and at another time he might radiate the need to be left alone. A lot of that has to do with the fact that he’s rapidly adapting to the environment and situations that he’s being placed in, the rest is more focused toward the reality that he never really had the experience of socially adjusting anywhere. Dean was always on the move and he didn’t believe in long term friendships and bonds that extended past family until he was almost twenty-nine. He’s not an enigma he’s just gotten used to being the “foggy” guy in the room and he's never gone out of his way to change that. It’s still questionable as to whether he’s unsure of himself and where he in fact lies in all of this, if it’s his more definitive personality, or, what he’d like himself to be. Dean doesn’t keep to one standardized image and tends to vary between his personality flaws and habits.
The man is stubborn and biased when it comes to his own belief systems, he prefers to think that his opinions and his assumptions are resolute simply because he’s had to rely on only himself for so very long. It’s not an issue of elitism, he just knows his ideas and evaluations to be true in 90% of the situations that he’s faced. It doesn’t mean he’ll immediately cast aside an offering of ideas or leads but he’s one to always want and have the final say in expressing and acting upon them. This mule headed tactic is often involved in his social connections and family relations as well. Dean doesn’t like to surrender himself in an argument and won’t bend to anyone’s will. History has proven the only two to successfully get him to put aside his idea of the way things should be are his brother and his father, and even that wasn't without a struggle. Dean isn't fond of peer pressure or others swaying him into doing what they think is more preferable and has even gone so far as to do the exact opposite of their wishes if he doesn’t agree with it. His views on himself and the supernatural world (vampires, werewolves, ghosts, demons, and angels) are treated very much the same. It's not without heavy evidence supporting another theory or standpoint that he'll relinquish his opinionated high ground.
Always the prideful creature, whether it comes to just his ideals or people that he respects he can’t see wrong in feeling the way he does about them. Dean behaves like he’s the greatest thing since sliced bread; he carries that ego in his posture as well as in the bridge of his shoulders and is so open about it that it's become very evident. He’s no stranger to what he’s done for everyone and everything and even though the aftermath has dropped this pig headedness down a great degree, it’s still there and true. He's learned to value himself as a person despite the scorn that he has for his mistakes and with people like Sam and Castiel feeding into his ego when he’s doing things right and taking steps in the correct direction the attitude has never really died.
The hunter has a knack for making a crude comment or sardonic joke in the midst of a tense or emotionally stressful situation. While some might contribute this to immaturity in many ways it’s a coping mechanism. Dean doesn’t have time to take every heavy psychological blow that’s thrown at him and instead of allowing it he’ll turn it into a joke to make it easier for himself to deal with. He does this fairly often, despite circumstance, and it’s gotten to be a regular part of his personality.
It's not obvious at all or ever admitted but Dean’s very insecure, not just about himself, and not about anything physical… but more so emotionally. His time in hell showed him just how liable he was to snap, that he wasn’t made of stone and cement and that he could be broken. The mistakes that followed were like below the belt hits and he carried those feelings with him for a very long time, buried inside and not mentioned until the finality of everything finally started to make the walls that he’d set up crumble. His time there showed him that he too could snap under pressure and be made into something monstrous (like the things he hunts) and it haunts him, the failure there reminds him of the horrible things he is capable of as much as he never brings them up or admits to it. He’s attempted to mentally separate himself from that side of who he is but he knows that it’s still there and it’s still a plausible piece of him and that realization hurts.
Outwardly, he may appear almost vainglorious in his reactions to people and things. Inwardly, this certainly isn’t the case. Dean is genuine in what he does and says despite the fact that he tries to shroud this part of himself away. It's with cocky superiority and incandescent sarcasm that he keeps the real struggle with who he is, and his trials and tribulations well hidden. He's always been good about keeping himself calm in the face of danger or distress and is very used to facing impending doom and severe situations. Throughout his experience with them he’s learned indefinitely to treat them with a placid recognition. He’s calm, smooth talking, deliberate in everything that he does in these circumstances and in many ways it helps him carry on through them. He doesn’t lose his head as easily and he’s better about accepting the ammunition that’s thrown at him when he’s involved in them. On that same note, Dean can’t be shot down when it comes to being involved in such an issue or situation. He’s head strong, strong willed, and determined. He can’t be diverted from what he’s doing and he won’t stop with it until he’s reached his goals and the priorities he had for what he’s dealing with. It takes death or near death to coerce Dean away from something he’s actively participating in or fighting. He’ll carry out an order or a task until it’s completely finished. He's never liked leaving things hanging and this is only supported by the fact that he’s never left a case at home open ended and always treks trough it until he’s completely finished, no matter how much the circumstances might bother him.
Regardless of how he feels about himself, or about something that he’s involved in, Dean is heroic and altruistic. He’ll put his life on the line to ensure the safety of another person or that they’re freed from whatever is tying them down. He spends hours of his time looking into the things that he’s facing and working against so that he has a better chance of defeating it and saving the people that are involved. You could say the hunter is more cunning than he lets on, that he plays his stupid and arrogant jock routine to divert people away from the fact, but the things supporting this lack of intellect are usually replaced by the excess of street smarts and survival skills that he has in spades. While Dean certainly isn't well versed in book learning and has no college degree he's ahead of most when it comes to simply living and brilliant in his line of work.
Dean at the utmost doesn’t want any casualties, each loss is like a heavy emotional blow to him and he has problems handling that. He’s driven, he’ll do whatever it takes to make sure the situation goes as planned and that his goals and priorities (which are mostly saving everyone that he can) are attained. Dean’s seen and lost a lot in his life and he goes out of his way to make sure that he doesn’t have to add to the body count or the list of failures that he’s had to endure. Despite his thick skin and his ability to carry on through situations that would put most people in a straight jacket, somewhere inside of Dean lies self-doubt, a mass of insecurity, and resentment toward his own choices. Because he’s always burying how he’s feeling the emotional lapses that show this part of him happen in violent bursts. He covets and he scorns for his own needs and he’s human despite the magnificent façade. Inside of him there’s an internal war, and there always had been, even as he was in the midst of a more tangible battle. Dean hardly lets this piece of him win him over and it’s often only when something very traumatic has happened that people see this sensitivity and mournful acceptance of who he is and who he’s become. It takes quite a bit of prodding and analyzing to notice that the stern soldier isn’t what he often pretends to be, or that there’s more layers to him than just the tough jock with a sense of humor that he wants everyone else to see. He’s multifaceted and capable of being just as insecure as he is flamboyantly confident.
It’s not easy to say whether or not Dean is who he claims to be, who he is internally, or everything therein. He’s adaptable, above anything, and changes with circumstance. He’s the kind of man you meet four years prior at the worst of his luck and then see again another three later on top of his game. There are pieces of Dean that are overall too simple to fit under the definition of ambiguous, though it's one that comes to mind more often than not, especially in the company of normal people. He's mysterious, he's intriguing, and he's hard to read. Dean is an ever changing Labyrinth of cryptic personality traits and emotional responses. The composure that he displays is never exact.
In his 32 years of life he's been through a lot, seen a lot, and witnessed a lot of things a normal person wouldn't be able to tolerate without serious mental backlash. He's learned to remain stoic in harsh environments and situations and keep a tight jaw and focus on the matter at hand. In his experiences and history it's this that's kept him the most resolute as a person, without the addition of his social confidants, teammates, and family. Dean is goal oriented and in serious situations even organized (despite not being that way in leisurely matters) he knows how to work a plan and his instinct and intuition are sparkling examples of his ability to remain level headed and remove himself from other people's opinions should a circumstance go down the wrong road. He approaches everything with an almost careful calm, he's attentive to change, and he wants to learn despite his coming off as being more involved in himself and his own needs.
Brought up in a strict militant lifestyle Dean always played the part of a good little soldier to his father's directions. With the training and expectations John Winchester held for his two sons Dean was blessed with a knowledge of most beings of supernatural origin and the innate talent to wield most weaponry. In his years of experience both with John and without he built up a huge tolerance to pain, able to withstand more than an average person, and magnificent bodily endurance. To cope with what he was seeing as a child, and what he had to deal with as a young adult, Dean resides himself to a Rambo like appeal in the midst of hunts and bad circumstance and has learned to shroud himself from the things that might tamper with what he has to do or get done in the relative here and now.
Dean, while speaking English primarily is also educated in both old scripture-based Latin and Enochian. It's nowhere near his most amicable strength and at times he's liable to not enunciate correctly and therefore skew whatever incantation, spell, or chant he's doing... but it is a knowledge that he has attained and knows how to use himself. Enochian, being more represented by symbols than the actual language itself.
Physically Dean has shown weakness to emotional situations and the memories of his past. He doesn't sleep well, most always having nightmares and it makes him irritable, angry, and promises the inevitable mistake. He's terrified of planes and plane rides. While it doesn't state in canon beyond "planes" that he's afraid of heights it's obviously tied into not having control of the situation or lack of control in what he's venturing into, a problem most people experience with roller coasters and sky diving- utilities for enjoyment. Dean has a small equivalent to a Jerry Maguire complex. Despite his isolative and closed off nature Dean cannot be alone. He needs to have the companionship of someone, anyone, or he'll fall into self destructive and self sabotaging tendencies- also of which is a large fault of his.
As said above, Dean is heavily repressed, and while it may serve him in harder situations this is also a flaw because he's seized himself emotionally to such an extent that he can't show his true colors in the appropriate situations and buries everything to a degree that's so overwhelming, that when he's at a breaking point or facing anything that opens him up to sensitive scrutiny, he snaps. He breaks and he falls into either fits of volatile rage or horrible agonizing bouts of depression.
A tangible and living shortcoming of his would be his family, Sam, most importantly. The brothers raised each other while John paid them negligence in his attempt to vindicate their mother, Mary. Sam is the person he's closest to and dependent on to as mentioned many times in canon, unhealthy psychological and emotional levels. He values Bobby Singer (a social contact that became a lot like a surrogate father to him) to a much lesser but still very visible extent, and he handles him differently. The same could be said for the Harvelles and his friend and savior, Castiel.
Beyond this, Dean has a very visible crutch-type attachment to alcohol and food. He's indulgent and gluttonous with both of them. Obviously, for different reasons. He uses liquor as a coping mechanism and food of any kind (call him a food enthusiast) as an emotional pick-me-up. He's also very well attached to his play boys, using sex and foreplay as instant gratification between jobs and a way to feel good despite the heinous battle he's fighting in whatever circumstance he's forced to face. It's a way to feel connected to someone without the emotional baggage in his mind.
Retained Abilities: As mentioned in the personality Dean has a wide range of knowledge when it comes to weapons, an enhanced sense of endurance, and a very high threshold for pain.
III. SAMPLES
First Person Sample:
[The video display comes on at an upward angle over Dean's shoulders and neckline, he looks a little worse for wear with scruff on his chin that hide no tells that he hasn't been able to find time to shave for a while.] Just checkin' if there's life out there..... on this thing. It's pretty crazy out there, and I thought I wouldn't have to deal with any mass hysteria or outbreaks when I hit the sack the previous morning.
[He swallows, adjusts one shoulder in a half rotate that punctuates how uncomfortable he is using the device to begin with.] My name's Jerry Wanek... I'm a mechanic from Illinois.
[His eyes move off screen for a moment as he chooses his next words carefully, he's reflective for a moment, and fixes his face into one of understanding before going on.] If anyone's out there listening you're not alone, and I'm gonna do my best find you guys.
[The fiddling with the screen is a little clear as he's trying to turn it off.] Yeah. Okay.
... Signing off. [The screen goes dark.]
III 1/2. ALTERNATE SAMPLES
WRITTEN NETWORK POST FOR PARADISA. (Arrival)
VIDEO ENTRY AT IL PROM FOR HIS BIRTHDAY.
WRITTEN NETWORK POST FOR TWILIGHT ZONE RPG.
Several threads here on D_M.
Third Person Sample:
A third person log set with Sam a summer after the Season 5 finale. (It's AU in that Dean opened a roadhouse instead of doing construction and before I caught any of Season 6 so it's not to key, but still very IC in both my writing and the person I'm playing with.)
A log post from IL PROM.