so i kinda hit a nerve today when talking to a amazing person. we were talking about like emotions and stuff and i realized how long i have kept them back only letting the ones i want through to come out. i wonder if thats a big problem of mine. and right now i am stuck in a time warp remembering the past. of all the time i would just swalloe my ( Read more... )

Great thing about hitting rock bottom emotionaly and everything is no where to go but up and you feel good with every lil step WOOT talk to me people i rising back up and then ill fall but for now i am moving on up to the eastside

whats wrong with me i havent slept in a month the one day last night i needed sleep most it came but then again i am never allowed the things i want and am waken to my dad yelling for his wallet tearing up my bed. and there goes my sleep and thig just set things off in me and well i got mad and i ended up pucnhing a solidwall as hard as i can and ( Read more... )

ok so i need to explain something that i have been thinking about almost daily. I know in some of my posts i may seem mean bitter or angry, and at the time i probaly am but i use this journal is a way to release those feelings at the moment i rarely put in a entry of deep thought. and well like i would just like to take back a few things. first ( Read more... )

ok errrr i just finished butterfly effect i dont know if i should go like cry or punch a wall omfg what a horrible movie fuck i hate movies like that even if they are fake they strike emotions in you that errrrrr if you havent seen it dont unless you like feeling like shit after the movie cause the idea is amazing but what has to happen is horrible ( Read more... )

o and add tyler haha i forgot about him

so this is gonna be short but i have two things to say ( Read more... )

so this week has been alright. first of all football is a joke sometimes i hate knowing im 10x better then someone and my coach knows im 10x better but cause sobe idiot (who i wont say) says i cant play cause of some stupid reason. maybe to push me maybe not but im getting fucking sick of it. anyway been hanging out with mike a lot which brings a ( Read more... )

ok so yesterday has been the best day this whole summer. woke up went to a dager game with my bro and mike. pretty fin dodgers should have won but they are idiots. anyway we got back fromg ame and i rested a bit looked at my sun burnt arms. and mike picked me up and i got some boarder shorts and then we went to a friend of his house. so i dont want ( Read more... )

so summer is gonna suck i go to schoo at 7:40 get out at 1 and then in about 45 min im at football working more. but i guess its all worth it in some way. so today was cool i got a call from a marine recruiter saying he would like to see me on friday which is awsome. i guess some people thought i was kinda bluffing this thing aka parents but i am ( Read more... )