who i am

[potato99]

amelia. that's my name. when i look in the mirror i find a very pretty girl with a dull colour of hair and a little acne. i find deep eyes and nice teeth and full lips. i see the freckles by my eyes and the scars under my nose and on my lip. the dark make-up, the red collar, the nice neck and collarbone and the slightly plump body... i see my

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Afraid of who you are reply

[anonymous]

I can relate to a lot of the things you say you are as a person. I deal with a great deal of these issues of not knowing who I truly am. However, once I met Christ, he gave me a new identity in him. I know that you say you do not believe in God, but how can you not believe in someone that created you. We are his workmanship and he took the time to make you exactly how you are...unique, beautiful, special. We will never truly know who we are until we experience Christ in our lives and allow him to show us who we are and the purpose he has for us. Beauty starts from the inside. We all have things about us that we may not like or would change, but if we are were the same, life would be boring because there would be no creativity. Singing makes me happy too and I am also a cry baby. I have a lot of fears, emotional issues dealing with self, and life comes with disappointments, but I'm finding my comfort and peace in Christ. Take the time to know God before you say that you do not believe and if there is something that you may not fully

Re: Afraid of who you are reply

[potato99]

I respect your choice to believe in Christ.. But I've tried that road before and I found nothing, I felt nothing, I heard nothing... When I needed Him most, I found myself alone, with not a soul... My family, my friends... They were all gone. And He wasn't there to comfort me, or to let me know things would be alright. A lot of bad and messed up things happened to me and I never got comfort from Him. I'm really happy that you could find Him and He let you in... I really am.

Also, it's been a few years since I wrote this entry. To be honest I'm still very similar to this, only very different. I'm okay with not knowing who I am, because I have someone in my life who's willing to help me and listen to me. My family has let me know they aren't very interested in me, a very small amount of my friends are still around, and I'm okay with that. My life is good right now, and I got here with only two people to thank, and that's me and my fiancee...

Thanks for sharing, I hope God gives you all you deserve!