My entry today is a mix of everything, some of it uplifting and some not-so-enjoyable. After all, life is just like a box of chocolate
( Read more... )
Building up Buttercup...powerpuffwomenDecember 22 2004, 05:06:15 UTC
It's good in many ways but it makes me sad that I'm not a kid who can be protected anymore.
Of all the things you said this struck me. My dear Buttercup as you said that is your perception- albeit an exaggerated one as you noted. You are choosing to not be protected in this case, because your parent's vision differs from yours, a normal byproduct of the generational tide as we spoke of earlier. Just so I can wax all wise and poetic, (and since I've not had much to post on here lately, :p) let me say that as long as they live you will always be a kid who can be protected, no matter how old you are. Sometimes you will resent it, and there will come a time- just when you need it, where it will move you to tears. That is the beauty of parenthood
( ... )
Thank you for your thoughts...powerpuffwomenDecember 22 2004, 07:14:09 UTC
You are very wise, my dear Bubbles.
I don't know why I feel this pain in me. It's very different from what I felt when I was a teenager; that was just a rollercoaster and I was along for the ride! LOL This is a pain that has to do with me needing to appear in control, like I have my life together when I don't always. A pain of feeling like I'm driving myself towards an uncertain future as if going off a cliff,... It's just painful, and I don't really know why I feel it inside me. My life is mostly okay. Sometimes, I wish I were a different person, although mostly in personality rather than in circumstances. I thought I was through with existential anguish. It appears not. Stupid conscience! Stupid hormones!
I need to find a way to channel this negativity into something positive. Writing this is the best I've figured out so far! LOL
Comments 2
It's good in many ways but it makes me sad that I'm not a kid who can be protected anymore.
Of all the things you said this struck me. My dear Buttercup as you said that is your perception- albeit an exaggerated one as you noted. You are choosing to not be protected in this case, because your parent's vision differs from yours, a normal byproduct of the generational tide as we spoke of earlier. Just so I can wax all wise and poetic, (and since I've not had much to post on here lately, :p) let me say that as long as they live you will always be a kid who can be protected, no matter how old you are. Sometimes you will resent it, and there will come a time- just when you need it, where it will move you to tears. That is the beauty of parenthood ( ... )
Reply
I don't know why I feel this pain in me. It's very different from what I felt when I was a teenager; that was just a rollercoaster and I was along for the ride! LOL This is a pain that has to do with me needing to appear in control, like I have my life together when I don't always. A pain of feeling like I'm driving myself towards an uncertain future as if going off a cliff,... It's just painful, and I don't really know why I feel it inside me. My life is mostly okay. Sometimes, I wish I were a different person, although mostly in personality rather than in circumstances. I thought I was through with existential anguish. It appears not. Stupid conscience! Stupid hormones!
I need to find a way to channel this negativity into something positive. Writing this is the best I've figured out so far! LOL
Reply
Leave a comment