look i know this post is going to be visible by all of my friends and shit but i had to communicate with you in some way. I really appreciate you leaving what you left for me i guess it sheds some light on whats going on between us, i miss you ya know, i wish we could start over as friends, i miss when we used o hang out all the time and shit, i ( Read more... )

My stepmom is crazy, i thiught i wanted to try to live here longer than aug 25, but i decided not to, this bitch is fucking wacked. I guess ill try to go to jeffs, i have money saved up but its never enough, i need a job with more hours 25 a week is fucking retarded.

well, i figured out that my favorite person in the world is kaylee, she is so great, tonight when she was just sitting on my lap with marissa playing with her i really liked it, i really did. I love kaylee very much. WELL jeff screwed me, or tried to, and all because he was mad, he acts like a fucking 6 year old when he is mad, i cant wait till he ( Read more... )

... i got canceled on, i knew it would happen, well, i guess thats shitty, but what can one expect, shit never works out, and oh ya i didnt get to go to warped tour either, i got completely fucked over on it.

Well.....what is wrong with me, i dont know, i have had a lot of good chances at shit lately, like in my work, and with my family and stuff... i guess thats good. Brandy called me, asked if i was ok to talk to her and be her friend now, i laughed at her, said ya im fine to talk, i just have no interest in it... she said fine, i said fine, we hung ( Read more... )

wow, a weird night tonight, jessica read this, but has no justification for anger,if she is even angry, dunno whats going on in my life, but for the first time in a while i feel like shits falling into the right places, my friends are getting a little fucked up, but the base group is still together, fuck the sub group if we have to..... i hope jeff ( Read more... )

Well, she never called back, or she hasnt at least, it kinda upsets me, i wish she didnt call then not follow up, it was kind wrong, i wish i had known why she called in the first place, it would really make me happy just to have known

she called tonight at 1223, i wasnt here, i should have been, but i fucked around and got here late, i missed her call, the only thing important to me in the fucking world and i missed it, i hate myself, i wonder what she had to say, i wonder why she called, she knows why i want her to call, but i dont think that is why she did call, which makes me ( Read more... )

well, she hasnt called me, i dont think that she will ever, i miss her, i miss her with every bit of me, i miss her so much. i leave messages, but no reply, i listen to sappy love songs, i hate my life. her smell still lingers on things i own, i cant shake it out. the memory of her is everywhere, i spend days away from home to avoid her memory. i ( Read more... )

Im nervous about my journal, because i dont know exactly who will read it, i know most people wont give a fuck but i know a few who will. I dont know how im supposed to not hurt peoples feelings, i really dont want to hurt anyone, but i have to a lot, i have one person specificly who is relying on me for something, but i cant give them what they ( Read more... )