I'm sorry to get your hopes up. Lj is appearantly broken. I cant copy and paste the new work into the post window here...I can actually, but it jumbles everything in a rediculous way, even if i do the entire thing instead of paragraph by paragraph...so...to the lj admin ppl I have this to say....WHAT THE FUCK????!!!!!?????!!!!!!!???? o.O    O.o ( Read more... )

So yea, I dug up Larsen the other day....been working alot on it. Mostly the flow of the story. So I may have something up soon :D, even if its only a repost of the improved upon first part, the second may be rewritten, depending on how crazy I get with the first part. 

clouded sleep
striped away
memories
fade to grey

lust for self
no regard
beautiful
play that card

hate my friends
til they die
funeral
i'd never cry

want will change
see the day
come home to me
but i cant stay

If i could
but never will
swallow life
or get my fill

hide my face
not my gaul
working you
behind a wall

thirst for blood
taste the stains
lookin at me
and how it ( Read more... )

I was about to type that I was "screaming at the top of my lungs", but I about choked to death by inhaling my own saliva...and the notion was squashed.....

Any way...I'm about to go insane...but in a really good way. I've been working alot (money money money money!!!) and it seems the more I work, the better I get at the job. Reading that just now ( Read more... )

Doze in and out, 
drifting into dream land,
anything to find escape
escaping into
things I can't do

Finding myself, 
find myself with distance.
But distance is so far away
why can't i just stay here
and have you near

Most of the time
nobody can tell me
What if its a big mistake
to follow my own way
my heart the mainstay
[EDIT]
actually I think this may be it on ( Read more... )

For one, friends are missing, as well as my brother. So I am currently fixing up a shit-hole of a trailer (not my idea) into a livable dwelling in exchange for free rent until such time as the repairs/improvements are finished. So a suitable house is also missing. I HATE TRAILERS!!!!! THEY SMELL FUNNY!!!! Now, I have a job that pays pretty well, so ( Read more... )

If not inspired to greatness, to what end do we live our short time on this earth? Is it my fate to skulk in fear of the inevitable, or ride the flame of possibility headlong into the darkness? Whether or not we get to shout victory, we all will fall in the end. What would you rather be remembered for?

It is a fault ever to make up our mind once for all on any religious subject what so ever; and that, however sacred a doctrine may be, and however evident to us,-let us say, for instance, the divinity of, or the existence of God,-we ought always to reserve to ourselves the liberty of doubting about it. I cannot help thinking that so extravagant a ( Read more... )

No real meaning behind the title....just a word I like in both meaning and sound :D. Now, lets get down to it. It has been six weeks since my last post....rediculous. I need to treat this as just what it is, a distraction, a time for me to think what I want to think, and get it out in a cathardic means. I've tried four times atleast in those six ( Read more... )

Yeah yeah, crummy title for a post, I know. I've been doing some thinking though, oddly enough, and I've come to a realization. There are certain criteria that define a man, or rather, "manliness" in a man. But I also know that no one set of rules go for everyone. So, in order to keep myself writing, I've decided to do a number of posts in regard ( Read more... )