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[praetorians]

the thing i have loved the most in a while... is walking out my front door tonight. a large part of me has just died. i don't know what to do, i don't know what to say, to think. everything that i thought was ok and good... wasn't. i will miss her.

someone come and save me.

Comments

[stone_]

Ouch.

Is this why you came back to O-G?

[praetorians]

partially.. and me trying to take a break from endgame in wow.

[groovy2382]

Whoa where have you been hiding?

[praetorians]

at home, on my computer. playing games.

[beth_eliza]

you'll be fine
all broken hearts heal

[praetorians]

thank you. i appreciate that.. and it was nice to hear your voice again today. i hope that we keep in touch more and continue to have a friendship again. i still miss you sometimes.

[mistique_drake]

im sorry,
how unfortunate,
however it will be okay
i promise.

[alwaysourselves]

you gave me something that i loved with the wholeness of myself. a little girl's dream. beauty of which you never spoke.

in the same suddenness, that something was ripped from me. torn by some contraption, it remains a would-have-been. a what-if. neither of will ever know.

giving up broke my heart in half. in pieces. completly irreparable. i knew i'd never be the same, what you wanted. not after that. this. you.

you are dangerous. a fantastic, beautiful, confused sort of dangerous that is only found out about when it is much too late. your begging and pleading only made the process more difficult, more painful.

don't you want what's good for me? see: selfish.

be selfish now, without me. learn to love yourself and your life. be good to your body.

there will always be a place in my heart for you, whether you like it or not.

[praetorians]

who are you?

[alwaysourselves]

take a wild fucking guess.

[praetorians]

why are you posting on my journal? i thought you didn't want to talk to me, or have me talk to you.