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Dec 13, 2009 14:58

I wrote this on FB on Wednesday, December 9. I know I've really been neglecting LJ lately, but I wanted to post this here so those who aren't also on Facebook could know what I've been going through these last couple weeks. I'll post something of a followup-type nature soon, I imagine ( Read more... )

medication, friends, mental health, family

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theda December 14 2009, 21:03:21 UTC

You take care hon.

prairieflower December 15 2009, 05:55:58 UTC

Thanks, sweetie. I'm trying my hardest.

crispengray December 14 2009, 21:27:01 UTC

Coming off meds can be just as hard as starting them up.

You have my love and support, Prairie. You're awesome.

prairieflower December 15 2009, 05:59:13 UTC

I put it like this in an email to my mom:

And it's been hell. Withdrawal symptoms like you wouldn't believe. I'm learning firsthand what a junkie goes through. Because relying on daily medicines is a lot like being addicted, you know? I didn't take them to get high, I took them to function. But when it comes down to it, doesn't a junkie get a fix just to get through a day? Doesn't an alcoholic have a drink just to feel "right" again? So anyway...

This is one of the hardest things I've been through in a long time. The shakes, the vomiting, the headaches and muscle cramps... And nothing but time to make it go away. It's sucked. I know it will be best for me in the end, but sometimes I feel like it's killing me. I didn't think it would be this hard or this painful to come off my meds, but it is physically and emotionally trying. It's damn hard.

brilliant_snark December 14 2009, 22:11:43 UTC

*loves and snuggles you* I'm glad you have a place and a person to help you through this. :)

prairieflower December 15 2009, 06:02:04 UTC

Me too. Jon's been a huge help.

Sometimes, just having someone around is a blessing. He holds my hand when I need to cry (or gathers me up in his huge arms and just hugs me), he tucks me into bed when the shakes and the shivers make it hard to move. He reminds me to eat. He takes me to the store to buy vitamins and fruit and yogurt and a huge ass bottle of Motrin. He's great.

slipjig December 14 2009, 23:46:46 UTC

*love and luck*

prairieflower December 15 2009, 06:02:20 UTC

Thanks.

sheldo27 December 15 2009, 01:33:34 UTC

It's really great that you have such a wonderful friend to help you out in such a difficult time. Wishing you all the best as you work through this.

prairieflower December 15 2009, 06:02:40 UTC

Thank you.