Hmm. Thanks, love. <3 But. Seriously. I am more outrageously pessimistic than you think. o_o Got in another fight with mom. And another one with dad. I know you mean well, and that your words should comfort me, but..I'm afraid I'm beyond comfort. Mixed signals is all I ever get around here. One minute it's 'I love you so much..' and the next: 'Shut your trap, Jessica! You're /this/ close!' and an index finger and thumb press together to show me how close I am. To what? Who cares. Fuck. I'm sorry, Em. I know I promised not to say that word. =X But. That's how I'm feeling right now. Don't tell anyone.
Emily. You are such an amazing person. But I feel like being sick. You poor thing..and there I was whining about my parents and their temper. If I'd only known. o_o I feel terrible. I hope things are okay now. And I wish I'd been there for you. I don't really even know what to say..besides I love you no matter what. It's strange. You know? I hardly remember anything about Texas. Just snippets here and there come to mind. I can remember sitting in the playhouse..looking into your backyard. I can remember Halloween and hiding with you in that coffin your dad always put outside. It made scary noises. I can even remember a time we were eating fruit loops with color-changing spoons. And a time that Paul spread his mashed potatos around on his plate to make your dad think that he actually ate them. That same night at dinner, you started screaming because a wire popped in your braces. It makes me smile, remembering those things. I wish you could come to California. But. I'm off topic, here. I was trying to point out the irony in the fact
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Haha. Daddy making beer..right after we moved to California, he made it again. Then the enormous basin holding the gallons of beer fell off the counter and almost stained the entire floor. Rofl. x) I heard the word 'fuck' for the first time in my life on that day. Of course, I went around the house looking for my mom. When I found her I promptly reported that I'd heard Daddy say a 'vewwy bad wood'. If that had happened today, I'd be laughing my ass off. Probably. But not then. I was too busy being shocked that I'd heard such a bad word. :P
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