i wouldn't date myself if i were a guy

[pre__madonna]

im clingy.
i linger.
im depressed.
i don't sleep enough.
i have little to no confidence.
im straving but i won't let myself eat cause i want to lose weight.
iam a slut by words and a prude by actions.

i don't love myself..
how could anyone else?..

Comments

[ipsissima_verba]

Because you're skipping over all the good parts. <3

[anonymous]

why do you want to loose weight? why are you trying to meet other peoples standards when you wont meet your own? you dont love yourself is correct so why dont you try? tell yourself one good thing every morning in the mirror, something that makes you, you. Once YOU finally will accect that good thing go onto another thing to say about yourself in the morning. if you think that activity is dumb, "gay" etc, then why? thats just more of your insecurity then. i dunno.....

[pre__madonna]

personally i think this activity is cute but.. i made the entry out of my mood not out of knowing people were gonna read it..and judge it

and you make it sound like a scream for help..
i don't wanna loose weight for others..its for myself..
and i don't feel like i need to prove myself..any further.
why is it soo taboo for a somewhat decent weight chick to what to loose weight?

[ipsissima_verba]

She's expressing her mood. Venting is a healthy thing. If she had known an anonymous contributor would judge her words without knowing her reasoning, this entry would have never been made.
She doesn't try and meet other people's standards. Yes, it is a bad decision to stop eating, but she just wants to tone and feel in shape instead of feeling like a fat slob.
Yes, the last line was not meant to be answered by anyone other than herself. Not even answered. She needs to resolve things. Stating her insecurities is step one.

[pre__madonna]

btw loosing weight and toning up is healthy