I know. They were mean. You don't deserve any of it. And suddenly it's high school all over again. When did people stop being sincere? The more we get involved with other people, the less appreciation we give them. The truth is I am also afraid. To think that no one gives a damn is scary. And that is why I cried. When you told me, I knew I had to ( Read more... )

Gw ga suka liat orang-orang yang buku agendanya diisi dengan penuh, memberi kesan mereka orang yang banyak acara dan terencana. Padahal isinya paling kayak gini:

07:00 Kuliah Pagi
13:00 Makan siang bareng si ini
15:00 Cari kado buat si itu
19:00 Belanja bulanan,
21:00 Dinner bareng si pacar, dst.

Ahh gak penting.. Kalaupun gw orang seperti itu, isi ( Read more... )

My life is not mine. At least not anymore. Not that I know ( Read more... )

To have nothing but sales slip and receipts in your wallet
And the coin compartment no longer bulge
You immediately regret buying that DVD writer
Which is of no use after all
Since you can't afford buying DVD-Rs
You can't afford living this far from home anymore
But you can't afford going home either
At last impulsive shopping has taken its toll

Although ( Read more... )

Too good to be true. But there is such a thing, the thing between Jonathan Safran Foer and Nicole Krauss. He's her life and she's his idea of beautiful. My melancholic side is resurfacing. Normally I'd snicker to any display of affection. Now as I read that first dedication page I felt something tugging my heartstrings. It's still there. The ( Read more... )

Yesterday was my mother's birthday. I can't remember the last time we celebrated it. Instead I was busy thinking what to give my boyfriend for his birthday, which is in two days. For the last two days I'd been wearing my Peter Rabbit necklace, reminiscent of my mother's trip to England which now seems like decades ago. And yesterday, while ( Read more... )

Today's my sister's birthday. I was thinking about buying her the red shoes she's been craving for ages, but my aunt said "No more shoes for your sister!" Hahah. Lucky for me, no one knows how many shoes I own. So then I thought about buying her a book, as part of my attempt in de-illiterating her. But I remembered the last time I bought her two ( Read more... )

I will be seeing my boyfriend in Saturday
It's over 50 hours away

Jealousy is easy. But not until recently had I realized what an ugly green-eyed monster it really is. Yeah, I heard that when you're jealous you can't think straight. Almost like love, the feeling is blinding. You ignore the fact of the matter and choke in envious fits. You ignore the fact that, by having those fits and displaying them so ( Read more... )

Is this it? Have I reached the point where I can tolerate most anything? I don't want to admit that it is. I just need to reassure myself that it's okay if it's not. In this case, denial is good. I'll want to deny. I'll want to try my best to deny. Because all of this just seems so.. official. Confirmed. And from what I know I'm too proud to be.. ( Read more... )