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I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
the weekend was amazingly busy, but so much fun!
thursday night, i went bowling with aimee, eric, and eric's buddies (the penetrators) - aimee and i are the groupies (the penetrated). fun times - lots of whiskey!
friday, my parents and steven came through mt. p and we had lunch @ applebees. afterwards, alanna and i went to MSU for the night for jorgia's bday. mongolian bbq = so good. we watched a couple movies and had amaretto sours. it was fun hanging out with alanna's friends, as always. i got to see mike there too - he's such a nice boy. i talked to his mom on the phone, too - haha.
we came home saturday at 3, so i showered and went right to a crappy night of work - the smoking section is NOT cool. but the phi tau party was. alanna, aimee, and i ventured to the pkt house and had the usual fun with our captain.
yesterday, i worked at noon, with no hangover (yay)! and then the snow fell like mad. so much that mt. p public schools were cancelled today, meaning no volunteering. now, i must finish getting ready and do the dishes. work tonight at 4:30. i found out i close wednesday - that'll be a long ass night.
peace out.