okay im sorry about the last few entries...things have been going better for me..im not so upset about the nate thing anymore just a lot of other shit is going down in my life thats upsetting me now...

so today i have nothing else to occupy my mind except that i dont have him anymore...so today sucks...its my birthday and im crying.. why does this always happen to me crying on your bday is NOT fun! i know i should just get over it but i cant its so hard! yesterday i went and got my homecoming dress and i was really excited at first and then it ( Read more... )

so im in first hour again..im feeling a little better today...im still REALLY confused on why this all happened...and why everything bad has to happen by my birthday...but hey shit happens and you get over it. itll be really hard and im definitly not looking forward to spending my friday and satuday nights alone again but hey what can you do? i ( Read more... )

so nate broke up w/ me over the phone tonight "you are a kick ass person in every way, i just dont feel it anymore" so that definitly sucks hardcore, i feel sick, havent stopped crying, what am i gonna do?? for the last 6 months hes been my everything. the one i tell my secrets too (he knows stuff NO ONE knows) the one i call when im mad @ my mom, ( Read more... )

okay folks my insomia is BACCCCKKKK!!!

so once again i am in first hour...and this update is to mainly tell you all that i am still on lj ive just been to lazy to update. nothing has been going on except saturday i went to a concert, reggie and the full effects, alkaline trio, my chemical romance...yeah it was pretty much a disaster i ended the night throwing up all over my lawn about ( Read more... )

so im sitting in first hour...student asst. for mrs.kent...right? i put a bulletin board up of all the new teachers and it pretty much looks like crap and its really bothering me i left thinking it would all be ok but now its really bugging me...i want to go rip it down and fix it! grrrrrrr...so im pretty ticked off next friday we werent supposed ( Read more... )

i had this revelation about myself this weekend amid everything thats happening...i tend to worry moer about other peoples feelings than my own. I will say anything to make them seem calm and everything will be okay but when im by myself i tend to think towards the worst...so i guess in that sense im like my freakin father and im a pathological ( Read more... )

okay so today was chairing day! whoohoo actually it sucked pretty hard core i didnt practice all weekend cuz i didnt feel like it...but whatever i got 11th chair out of 14th ahah better than last i guess... im cool with it! well thats about it adios all!

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