The only person on my friends feed who posted finally deleted his live journal. I guess there really is no one left.

I graduate with my PhD in philosophy in August. Unfortunately, my committee has been a nightmare--an advisor who hasn't given any guidance and three members who haven't bothered giving me comments, even though I've sent multiple ( Read more... )

I'm 31 now. I've had this livejournal since I was 15. The last 15 years may have contained almost as much growth as the first 15.

I need to forgive myself for who I was. Remember Proust: we all die many deaths.

I'm spending my days preparing to go to Germany for the next year. My dissertation is almost complete. My defense date is scheduled for ( Read more... )

People I know keep coming out as "they/them." This is alarming if only because it demonstrates how fully people have internalized gender stereotypes as what it means to be man/woman. One "narrative" I've just read is of a man who played with barbies as a kid and didn't want to join the Boy Scouts, hence is now a "they." It is not like I feel an ( Read more... )

I feel that it is quite easy to ridicule the concept of "microaggressions" if you haven't lived through them. In the course of a few years, I transformed from a naive and amenable kid (though I've always been annoying) to a cynical and resentful teenager under the weight of sleights and subtleties. I need to give my younger self some compassion--I' ( Read more... )

Biden is a fucking fascist.

The idea that Biden was the lesser of two evils is not justifiable, and perhaps may be empirically wrong.

The foundational act of freedom is saying "fuck you."

Eugenics gets a bad rap because its criteria was intelligence, or race, or barely covered up racism. We need a eugenics for the left, one based on prohibiting narcissists and sociopaths from giving birth and holding positions of power in social and political organizations.

The isolation of quarantine and the stress of writing a dissertation has led me to two things: first, thinking about death a lot; and second, thinking about all of the terrible things I've done and said to people in the past. For a few months, I could barely go a night without thinking about my last moments of life, how falling sleep must be ( Read more... )

I write this on Thanksgiving, when millions are traveling to have dinner with their families.

As the old joke goes: "Who hates the poor more than the right?" "The left!"

I have seen so much misanthropy over the "ignorant" and "selfish" masses from the left since the pandemic began. This is what it means to be in the gutter of ideology: failing to ( Read more... )

I've written my dissertation. I am in the process of editing it. I have two more years of funding, so I have finished quite early. But the two years won't go unused: I plan on reading a lot of stuff I should have but haven't yet and learning more about myself philosophically. I've discovered myself to be a transcendental phenomenologist. I've ( Read more... )