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[prettyenpink]

everyone says, lifes not fair, but i think its taken me almost 17 years to figure out that its not. nothing in life makes sense what so ever. if things are supposed to happen to effect people then how come they dont. my big brother died in a car accident for what to teach kids to slow down and that little adrenaline rushes arent worth it, cause it

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[raelovesyou]

Cork, I think about them all of the time too. Its not fair, at the candel light vigil, my dad was just like: "It should have been me, I used to screw around in cars all of the time, not these kids, who had so much going for them." And its the truth, Courtney, I'd love to tell you some magical advice to help you push through it, but the truth is, I haven't found it yet myself. The only other people who I still even talk to about it is Brett Bredemier and Amanda Schmidt. It still is something that crosses my mind all day, I miss them so much, and there is nothing I can do to get them back. It's by far the worst thing that has ever happened to me. All I can say is that I am here for you, if you ever just need to call and cry, I will listen to you. You have the number darling...
Love you,
Rae

rae rae

[prettyenpink]

Rae Rae thanks so much for that and for saying that you will always be there even if I just want to cry. It hurts soooo bad to know that it affected people for like a week but it will affect me for the rest of my life. I feel like when I talk about it no one cares so I just don't talk about it and I think thats why I think about him sooo much. And as for what your dad said, I say that to myself every day, why him why not me, he had such a wonderful life and a wonderful affect on people and i have nothing going for me. but you know thats not going to change anything. Thank you so much for being there for me. I love you sooo much

love always and forever
courtney jay