I guess you coould say i've been okay.. okay isn't good enough .. but sometimes i don't know how to be better then okay.. idk what it is.. i just want to be happy .. i deserve to be.. so idk why im not? i just need to belive in myself & have confidence for myself.  & sometimes i don't. @ all.. well first things first if i want to be happy i better ( Read more... )

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[ well.. first off.. i think im over my fucking being a dumb bitch.im stupid.. & i am the one that ruiens everything.. im the one that pushes you to that point. So im sorry. Really I am.. Thank you for being there for me .. I love you baby. that’s all there is to it & nothing will change that.. I will always love you you’ll always be apart of me.. ( Read more... )

life sucks as of right now.

i pray im gonna close my eyes i can see visiosn of you on my mind.
i pray to see you in another life i prya that youll be bymy side
i wish i could rewind
ill get on my hands & knees to never forget our special memories
i pray its time for me to say goodbye
i pray ..

well. today was good. when we woke up. & then work was ok. i guess i couldn't say i hate making money, & Its not bad i just get annyoed to easy.. but then... i came home cort got pissed in the car ride home b/c he was fucking asking me questions when im on the phone w/ my mom who i talk to like everyday if not everyother but i couldn't already hear ( Read more... )

hmm... lets see, my weekend was alright i guess.. went back to work friday.. we were slow ? so i got cut early. i seen my lover girl, judith. for the first time in a while, she don't have a phone anymore & she went up north for the weekend.. so i wonder how shes doing, prolly getting drunk or something knowin her crazy ass.. lol ;) i love her!.
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today was boring. me & cort were lazy. we slept in... watched tv ate & just hung around the aparment for a few & took a shower got ready & then went to the grocery store & tannin & what not.. that really all our day consits of really.,.. hmm.. this weekend boring also.. work work work! drr.. I work Friday & Saturday night. & then SUnday Am . thank ( Read more... )

_so,  ive had the last few days off. & its been really nice.. i needed it i should say, well anyways my sister came over last night... she hasn't ever been to this aparment so she stayed over, & then cort had adren over.. it was quite a night we got a little tipsy off some parrot bay, yum ; ) .. he hasn't hung out with him in a while so i didn't ( Read more... )

god i need you right now..
i need your help.
what do i do.?
i think im going crazy
& i need help before something happens...
please god
amen