Tomorrow is my one and only final and I just want to get it over and done with so I can stop thinking about dumb school. Im pretty sure I'm taking a semester off instead of going back in the fall. Two failed classes makes me realize I'm wasting money on something I dont have a healthy enough mind-state to do,  and do well. I need to work, coach, ( Read more... )

School is going prettty bad this semester, and im starting to get a little nervous more than the 'fuck it' attitude..
But, I guess all I  can do now is try for the rest of the semeser, and then kick myself in the ass and do better in the fall. I cant worry about it too long I suppose cause You cant change the past! I love this weatherrrr

I barely go on my laptop anymore because it is such a challenge to use this fucking keyboard! I went from having a sticky space bar to my G button falling off, L button is difficult to press..and the list goes on ( Read more... )

AH... I delteted my last entry becuase to be honest I sort of forgot that I wrote it... School NEEDS to be done soon, I think I am going insane with work and the thing is: I don't really have that much work, it's jusdt the fact that I dispise all my professors but one, so it's really difficult to even care ( Read more... )

My grandparents are getting old. My grandmother needs back surgery and rehab and my grampa can barely breathe. My mimi had a stroke and my grampy is lost without her old active and independant self. Im afraid of them dying. Someone very very close to me has a brain tumor and im terrified of losing them. Death is part of life but letting go and ( Read more... )

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HELLO EVERYONE IT IS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY ( Read more... )

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"You know, I wonder if they'll laugh when I am dead
Why am I fighting to live, if I'm just living to fight
Why am I trying to see, when there aint nothing in sight
Why I am I trying to give, when no one gives me a try
Why am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die"

Life is becoming a little too predictable.. But at the same time.. I always look ( Read more... )

Well, I had a very stressful day.  It started with an exam in History of Jazz. Then I had an appointment with my shrink, then when we were on the way to greg's dad's, greg got very sick...then an old man didn't look where he was going and pulled out  and smashed right into me. So now, I have a very large, white dent in the side of my car,and you ( Read more... )