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Your eyes burned holes in my skull from across the room. I pretended not to notice and studied the condensation on my fourth glass of whiskey instead. "When does this ever get easier, when will you get out of my head?", I managed to catch two of the questions flying hectically around my brain as you stared longingly at my hands. I knew I'd never be ( Read more... ) -
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I stared at myself in the mirror as I got ready to venture out into a place my anxiety would probably overrule my charming personality. Nothing has changed yet. Weeks of running and torturing my body and stuffing disgusting food down my throat when I'd much rather be eating things I enjoy hasn't made me any happier. As I turn to the side, squint my ( Read more... ) -
I see myself in her constantly.
Carrie: Hey, I have question for you. Why wasn't it me?
Mr. Big: Carrie...
Carrie: No seriously. I really need to hear you say it. C'mon. Be a friend.
Mr. Big: I don't know. It just got so hard. And she's...
Carrie: ...Yeah.
Carrie: Your girl is lovely, Hubbel.
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I didn't do anything for Halloween. First time in a really long time that I just haven't cared and went to sleep.
Friday, however, I hung out with someone that made it so completely effortless to be myself. I'm not going to get excited about anything anymore until it's for sure, but I finally have a good feeling about this. I think about him when he ( Read more... ) -
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Brittany had to call an ambulance for me on Thursday. I'm pretty sick of being unhealthy. I had been having chest pains on the drive up to Orlando from Vero and I was doing my best to ignore them. As we got closer to Orlando, they got harder to ignore and I suppose they triggered a panic attack. Apparently I was breathing so hard that it caused my ( Read more... ) -
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It's over. For good.
I've cried all the tears I can. It's time to pack a change of clothes (metaphorically) and move on.
I just hope I can still be your best friend. I will try with everything I have in me, I can promise you that right now. -
I love you.
Love me or leave me.
But please don't leave me. -
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With a break from the constant emo, here's my 21st birthday party pictures. If you're my friend on FB, you've already seen these.
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You know I love you. You know I'm in love with you. It may only slip out when I'm drunk, but you are still the boy I wake up next to in my dreams and sometimes in real life. I go to bed at night, praying that you'll change your mind. That I'll suddenly be good enough for you again. That you'll take my face in your hands and wonder out loud how you ( Read more... )
