Hi. I can't sleep again. I really want to though, so that I can get up early and do the 18,000 things I need to do tomorrow. Ugh.
Well writing things here always seems to help, so that's what I'll do.
So, last night I had a crazy dream. It was one of those dreams with so much detail that I wondered how it was possible that all of that information ( Read more... )

Can't sleep again. So I'm back ( Read more... )

I'm writing this here, I think, as a way to kind of get it out of my head and move on. I have things I need to do tonight... so it's important, I think, that I articulate these things as best as I can right now so I don't keep mulling them over.
There was an incident this afternoon in my choir in which my director got incredibly upset with a ( Read more... )

They say the key to solving any problem is to first define what exactly the problem is, and then decide upon the desired result. Often, this is the most difficult part of the problem solving process. This is especially true when it comes to complex things like people and emotions.
So, Ali, what is it that you really want?
I have no idea.

Love,

Well alright, so I'm not off to the best start. I realized I couldn't be in one of the classes I wanted to be in because I read the times wrong, which isn't all that bad because it means I won't have class until 11:30 on Mondays and Wednesdays, although it does mean I need to find another class by the end of the week. Also, I couldn't find the ( Read more... )

It's the most frustrating thing in the world having SO MANY things I wish I could say out loud... but I can't say any of them. Just can't.

Love,

Ali

Because who reads these things anymore except for me really. Kind of a pity, really, I try and make myself sound all eloquent and it's not even kind of impressing anyone ( Read more... )

I've been reading through my LJ lately and the journals of some of my friends, so I feel it only fitting to update here now, as kind of a repayment. My bad habit currently, however, is only updating when I'm feeling particularly emotional, and I'm sorry to say that that's the case right now ( Read more... )

I'm going to make changes. Now I'm determined ( Read more... )

Wow, I really need to vent. I really don't want to do it here either. I just want someone to be sitting in front of me and I want to tell my whole sad story, and then have that person talk me down from it. And I mean really talk me down. Not some half-assed "Oh that stinks" or "we all make mistakes" or "I'm sure it will be ok". No. I really want ( Read more... )