Oh LJ

i really dont know what to do
i have a million thoughts going through my head right now
im trying my hardest to hold myself together

i feel like my life is at a standstill
i have no motivation to do anything
i wish i could just stay in bed all day and sleep
im back in that low place where i said i never wanted to be again
:/

what the fuck am i doing with my life?

i feel like i have some fake ass "friends" as of lately

my b-day was pretty rad.. for once

i start the new job on wed
until then im just sitting around.. doing nothing

and i did some new paintings today, which suck..

one last thing

FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(you know who you are)
xoxo

i feel stuck
i dont know what to do or which way to turn
im making myself sick with all of this stress

:/

i dont know why people feel they need to throw in their opinion on whats going on.
u dont know anything of what happened or why it happened
a big part of me just wants to pick up and move
i feel like i dont really have anything here anymore
i dunno i guess i will just have to see what happens

im makin some pretty big changes in my life
and with those comes some big decisions that need to be made
me and wes are talking again
im supposed to go up to tenn in the next wk or so to see him <3 ( Read more... )

i really need to learn how to except things

fucckkkk

im crossing my fingers

im getting pretty good at fucking things up