alright so I haven't written in a while. last night everybody was chillin at my place it was fun. matching hair and sad shoes. oh well. so I cut my hair and it's no longer that typical scene hair. yey for not having scene hair. bravo sarah. spree are the greatest candy ever. and I love chicken. kiss me if you can.

I got the job! party at my house??

is it true that I can love another with nothing in return? it seems as though when I put myself out...out to the wolves...that I love more fiercely and I am more selfless than those who treat me well. why is it that I cannot find someone who loves me as I am??? just me. just sarah. I'm so tired. I give up. I give in. and now it's time to throw my ( Read more... )

I feel good. but I'm still in a sad state. I hope that I can find the strength to stop caring so much. it's so hard. I wish I knew the answers. and I wish the future wasn't so scary. I hate the unknown. and I hate not having any control. especially concerning things so imoportant to me.

If I get this job at hollywood video I'm throwing a party and everyone is invited. so we'll see here in a few days. I'm serious I need a job sooooo freakin bad. Lindsey may not be able to move in anymore which is super bad news. that means I have to come up with an extra 100 dolla and I don't have it. plus I really want a cool new roommate!! Ahhhhh ( Read more... )

I'm sick of going unseen by eyes I strive to be in view of.

things that mean so much to me may seem insignificant to others. things I value may be worthless to some...I guess I just have to realize this. I have to quite my naivety and realize that the world around me is decaying and I am along with it. and the only way for me to really survive is to focus on a higher goal than the rest. Gosh I procrastinate ( Read more... )

I hate it when people don't listen to what you are saying then try to repeat it and haven't the slightest clue what you just said. grrrr. oh well. I've decided to start updating more frequently. hmmmm what now...hairfest 03 reunited was a grand event. Jennifer I thank you for being my guinnea pig. and letting me try anything on your hair. and ( Read more... )

a little confused and a little hurt. I'm not sure where I set my foot down when I stand. I am going today to look at a car. yey! if I got a car.....my life would with out a doubt begin to take off. a job!!!! a better job. a car provides those essentials that I've been living with out. ok I won't get too excited...because I don't have one yet. I ( Read more... )

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