dating sucks. 
feelings suck.
being away from lots of people i love sucks. 
dating is fun.
feelings are amazing.
I already love people here.
<3

 
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woo!!!! finally out of this funk LML!!!! <3

I have it good. I'm in a great school, where I have fun with my friends. There are a lot of amazing people in my life. I have a caring and supportive family. I have awesome friends who care about me and want me to party with them. I have two best friends who love me. I have a great life ( Read more... )

I have never feared and wanted something so much as I do love.
I have never felt more strained across a city. 
There it is in front of me, but I can't have it.
There you are; but you aren't real.

WHAT DO I HAVE TO BE BUMMED ABOUT?! 
for serious. These are the best days of my life. I get to live with some of my best friends. do whatever i want be young be free and figure out who i am.

earlier
"i have realized how stellar it is to be alive"

I have realized I sit around too much while i am high and take life too fast. I should be slowing it down by smoking and doing productive things like writing thinking debating and trying to progress myself. Too often i... watch stupid shit on tv. Inspiration is not something i know how to create usually. but when i do i hold on to it. when ( Read more... )

I feel that we were once this wonderfully ambitious pair filled with potential to shine on our own or as everything combined. Now diluted and captured by our workweek; catapulted sky high by kicks from drugs that we think will change our perspective ( Read more... )

This stillness I own
is painfully sound, 
it brushes by me
with such sharp
immediate energy,
its hard to breathe
with this dust around,
my words are devoured 
through my sound,
every harsh bit of reality 
eats at me, 
until i see
that it's just me, 
i'm here to please
only me, 
what do you see?
do you see me?

sometimes i wish i would just forget.
but this weekend was amazing. never had so much fun before.
keeping busy is the best thing