Everyone has hidden demons...

[priest_of_gix]

And you just know they're always waiting for that one chance to show themselves. All it takes is one time. Why do they want out so badly? All they'll do is hurt people... hurt friends... hurt family... hurt the one you love more than life

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Fuka-Fruka-Boom!

[anonymous]

Hmm, I bet I know what it is… really I do-it’s the fact that one time Kim wanted to know what it felt like to be inebriated… ONE TIME! She laughed giggled and fell asleep, and her pill prevents her from doing such things… it can cause major problems… and me I choose not to do it because I feel like shit afterwards and I think how I feel afterwards isn’t worth the buzz… and I know what you’re going to say “so if she wanted to try heroin, you’d let her” no… one drink isn’t bad in my eyes… it wasn’t even a lot, hell she didn’t even get drunk it was a buzz that lasted 10 minutes or so… Don’t fret man… it’s not a big deal… I can count on one hand all of the times I’ve drank and it’s three times and none of those times did I get hammerd… I buzzed a little and stopped… I don’t even like it I get paranoid and I think I’m going to have a stroke or something… and that was kim’s first time… and she told me “I never want to do it again” and I said “we’ll I’m sure when you’re 21 that’ll change” and she said “no!” and got mad at me… and it’s been

[anonymous]

Oh Also… I think we have the same “daddy issues” was he a violent alcoholic? Mine was as well… And I hate everything about him… I’ve tried so hard to purge all of his personality traits out of my system… sometimes I see him pop up here and there… and it just kills me… I almost cried one time when Kim motioned that I did something and it was like him… my voice cracked all up and my eyes started to water… ect… and that’s yet another reason why I wouldn’t drink… because he did… that’s another reason I want to change my name… I don’t want any trace of him kinked to me… Before I never wanted kids… I wanted his history to die in me… but I though, I could do better than that… I could raise a kid better than he could I could fix what he did wrong… and be the best dad I could be… (Just with a different name of course) :P but I guess I could apologize a million times… and I’ll make a promise to you that regardless of the situation neither I nor Kim will ever touch alcohol… that’s how much it means to me… I don’t like it, I know Kim doesn’t

[priest_of_gix]

I appreciate the explaination and apology. I think of ya as a brother man. I only ranted because I care, ya know?

And yeah, there's dad issues. I guess we're more alike then I thought. Sorry mate.. The past really can suck sometimes..