So I haven't updated in forever and a half. I've been going through some rough times, not sure if I was doing the right thing here, not even sure if I should be here. And by times, I mean weeks/months of these feelings. Slowly their going away, being replaced with grim determination that I've made my bed and now I'm going to lie in it, because ( Read more... )

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Okay, it's been awhile. Grad school is a selfish master. I have an exam in a week that I'm scared stiff of. If I pass, I'll get a good grade in the class. If I fail, I fail. Ain't life grand. My students are all going to fail, regardless of what I do it seems. I have to give a presentation on Friday that I'm less than thrilled about. Oh ( Read more... )

if you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if ( Read more... )

So I should probably update. Life is madness as usual. There are good days that are really good and then there are bad days where me and half of the organic chemistry first years contemplate quitting and find jobs as waitresses as it could possibly be as bad or as stressful. But I get by ( Read more... )

Okay, so I am still alive, if anyone was wondering. It's Friday night and I'm home alone grading papers. Actually, I don't mind grading. It's almost relaxing, although some of my students aren't quite all together ( Read more... )

Sorry I've been a little out of touch for the past week and a half, but you try starting grad school. My first classes are tomorrow. I have what is called the cushiest TAship, which is cool. I'm getting invited to parties and having a great time. My computer has been a little flaky as of late, so I haven't been online much. I should be on more ( Read more... )

Today was a good day. I'm no where near as close to a nervous breakdown as I was yesterday, I had peach pie and ice cream for dessert, I finished my tests and my boy friend is waiting for me in bed. Okay, so I think he might be unconcious, but he had a long day ( Read more... )

I have a BS from college. I've studied chemistry, history and differential equations. I've done accounting and tax preparation since I was 12. And yet, I can not for the life of me, fill out my employment forms. One of them is swearing to uphold the constitution. Uphold it in terms of what? About the only one that made sense was the direct ( Read more... )

So tomorrow grad school starts. I've studied to the point that I've either lost my mind, or almost achieved transcendence. Inorganic makes sense. All of it. Even that which I never understood before. Organic feels like it did at the end of the course, makes sense in a way it hasn't in a long while. So I hope for the best. 8:30 tomorrow ( Read more... )