maybe he's right, maybe i am a self-centered, selfish, munipulative bitch. i didn't know it was bad to want to be recognized for my accomplishments..............................it seems like no matter what anyone says i'm never satisfied.

hey all just a reminder about my show.

it's July 31st, August 2nd and 3rd at Niawanda Park. and August 7th, 8th and 10th at Fisherman's Park. all the shows are at 7 and are absolutely FREE!!!! just bring a blanket or lawn chairs and enjoy the show!!!!!

i really hope to see a bunch of you there!!!! see ya!!!

i was just reading through a bunch of my old LJ entries and found something very interesting that i wrote a while ago, like back in may ( Read more... )

i don't get it, i finally got what i wanted. now why am i not happier?

i'm feeling much better about my situation today. he must have really listened to what steph was telling him cuz he's definitely a much better kisser now he he. anyway yesterday was fun i walked in the parade for the first time, after waiting for like an hour cuz we were at the end. i missed a lot of people while walking apparantly, cuz i'm just ( Read more... )

i think sometimes i'm too much of a romantic for my own good. even when i have something good standing right in front of me i have to question it. what's wrong with me? here i go again overanalyzing every FUCKING situation. gotta love it, no you don't cuz i sure as hell don't!

i just don't know anymore, why does everything with me have to be so complicated?

ok scratch that last entry, i love my mommy!! i'm not sure WHY she relented but the point is that she did. maybe she realized i would be a miserable bitch to EVERYONE if i wasn't allowed to see him. or maybe something i said made sense to her. it was probably the first one but no matter, now about convincing my father, the overprotective, strict, ( Read more... )

honestly is 3 years really that bad of an age difference? he's 19 and i'm 16. my parents aren't hearing me, yes my mother may have said she'd listen to what i have to say but she won't, she'll hear me but won't listen. she wants me to stay within high school but what she doesn't realize is that one: the amount of high school guys i'm willing to ( Read more... )

i'm in the best mood today. i had an awesome day yesterday. let's just say we started stephanie and joel's list of people for me to date. number one was quite a hit. it's joel's cousin brandon. he's really shy but really sweet, he bought me ice cream, and made sure i wouldn't get hit by a car (you had to be there to understand) and walked me to my ( Read more... )