012. No more; I'm finished.
I'm not remaining where I'll just get in the way. Albel will have to find his own way back to his lover, and when he gets there, I won't be in Fayt's way when he runs to embrace him and welcome him home.
I'm going back on my own path again. I still don't understand everything. All I can do right now is wonder where all of this pain is coming from and wonder why... after everything... I still feel like my heart is torn in two. Wherever I end up, I'm still alone, and that's all there is to it. I don't want to see either of them again. I've learned my lesson... I don't know what it is yet, but whatever it is, it hurts enough to be one.
I think maybe I'll go see Paris, or this Vegas place everyone keeps talking about. I want to get laid by a woman, and maybe get so absolutely drunk off my ass I need a physician.
If I'm lucky... hmph.. no, I can't say that. My uncle would seriously beat some sense into my head if he were here now...
God, I miss him... He's always been there for me. And now that he's gone, I've taken him for granted... What would he say if he knew I'd shared a bed with a man? He'd probably have a heart condition right on the spot and fall down flat, Ahaha...
No... even talking about Uncle doesn't help...
He said the heartache would go away. He says I'll find someone. THey're all fucking flat-out lies.
I'm going back on my own path again. I still don't understand everything. All I can do right now is wonder where all of this pain is coming from and wonder why... after everything... I still feel like my heart is torn in two. Wherever I end up, I'm still alone, and that's all there is to it. I don't want to see either of them again. I've learned my lesson... I don't know what it is yet, but whatever it is, it hurts enough to be one.
I think maybe I'll go see Paris, or this Vegas place everyone keeps talking about. I want to get laid by a woman, and maybe get so absolutely drunk off my ass I need a physician.
If I'm lucky... hmph.. no, I can't say that. My uncle would seriously beat some sense into my head if he were here now...
God, I miss him... He's always been there for me. And now that he's gone, I've taken him for granted... What would he say if he knew I'd shared a bed with a man? He'd probably have a heart condition right on the spot and fall down flat, Ahaha...
No... even talking about Uncle doesn't help...
He said the heartache would go away. He says I'll find someone. THey're all fucking flat-out lies.