Today is my brithday! Im now 20 years old!!

So ive been thinking about alot of things latly, things are fucked up. I wrote kyli a letter....it seems my heart is to weak. I cant stop from forgiving ( Read more... )

SOooooooooooo where do i begin...my friend Kim from prineville is here. Ive been drinking, smoking lots of weed.....hanging out downtown reno...and been having lots of fun sex!!!!!!!!! So there goes me staying outa trouble. But i am still talking to Mr police officer *sooo hoootttttt* yaa i think me and him will be hanging out soon....when he is ( Read more... )

So i have been meeting up with this guy a couple nights in a row now, or should i say mornings. His shift kinda sucks. He is a police officer...and oh so attractive!! His eyes are green and i seriously almost faint when i see them. He lets me ride in his car on his breaks....*hummina hummina* ANYWAYS im sooo into this guy i hope it gets better!

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i feel heartless, i feel that i cannot feel anything worth feeling

So he called it off with me last night, it was like a big red bus....i saw it coming from miles away. Why do i let my guard down..why do i trust so easily. I couldnt even cry....i had a friend over...so i had to be tough. I am not as hurt as i thought i wouldnt be. Anyways my day is crap!

So my new years resolution...I jessica slocum WILL NEVER touch alcohol...EVER again.

I keep telling myself...that if he is lying that it wont matter..it will be just a fling...i keep telling myself...i wont get hurt this time, i wont let men get to me. Why am i being so silly...if he told me right now he never wanted to see me again..id sit in a corner in tears...i have alot of feeling for him...didnt really realize this till last ( Read more... )

im tired of being tired
im crumbling into depression
i feel the best isnt enough
i want more then i can ever have
i feel bad for nothing
only 2 things make me happy
a guy
and lots of alcohol
im pathetic today
nothing seems right