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[princess_420]

so yea this week has been stressful....ive been working alot and although i like my job it is still just work. sunday james and ashley and i went out to eat n park and just hung out. its the first time in a long time that me and ashley have hung out with out mike and aaron. we are completely two different ppl. we have both changed for the better in

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[stripsofacid]

Well Amanda I know that you didn't intentionally write this to hurt me but you did. I mean drugs amanda! Fuckin Drugs kept us together....fuck that shit...we did drugs and yes those were some of the best times...but remember when you got mono and I would take the beattie bus to west view and walk to your house to take care of you...thats a friend...not me running to try and get drugs...I fuckin loved you more than a friend...I loved you more than I have ever loved Mike...and this fuckin hurts because I feel like the whole time I thought we were best friends you didn't feel the same way...because do you remember all the times without drugs? You, Me, Brenda on sundays watching movies all day long, eating pizza, just hanging out. Or when I would write you letters just to tell you how much you mean to me or how much I loved you? Its sick because I loved you in a way I could never love anyone else. Everytime Mike sees me crying about you he tells me to just let go and you know what I can't let go...because in fact I still love you and will

[stripsofacid]

and I want to know how our lifestyles are so different now? We both barely do drugs...we both are in love...we both want to get the hell out of our houses...and most importantly we want the old days back..not so much them in general but us. or atleast I think thats what you want because I know I want it back. I would do anything to have one day like the old times because those are my best memories and those are the ones I will never forget. I have had so many first with you and to think like this makes me think that you want to forget about the memories we have made and just leave it at that. Its like you want to shut me out like Binder did to all of us...I need to talk to you because I am so fuckin upset...and I just feel like balling right here and right now at school because I am torn apart by this...and you are the only person that has made me cry in school...I never show emtion here...only when it has to do with something serious...and this is I love you Amanda...Why do you want to throw me away?