i dunno why is it so hard to work things out. u may think i'm not trying/not thinking about things/enjoying my life/heartless/selfish etc ( Read more... )

the weather's been rather erratic lately and it's seriously affecting my health. not too long ago i was down with a fever. now i'm having sore throat AND flu. my nose's leaking non stop and i have that annoying dry feeling in my throat. BLEEEHHHHHHHHHH ( Read more... )

yaayyyy. the National Women Kayaking Championship 2005 is finally over. i can rest for awhile before starting training for the next competition in end July ( Read more... )

whenever i see old ladies on the street i'm reminded of my grandma. today when i was in town, i saw this old lady and her granddaughter and i felt this tinge of sadness in me. many times i've wanted to bring my grandma to town and just walk around with her but somehow it never happened because i was too busy. sigh. i guess i'm never gonna have that ( Read more... )

BOOHOOO.

i hate being sick.

i hate having this half warm half cold feeling.

i hate the bland taste in my mouth.

i hate having to take medicine.

i hate not having the appetite to eat.

i hate feeling weak.

BOOOHOOOOoooooooooooooooooo.

so far the hols for me have been just training, eating and sleeping. sounds damn unhappening but somehow i'm enjoying what i'm doing. maybe coz it could be the last holiday for me before i embark on my working journey so i'm like doing everything else but finding work. i shall try and squeeze some time for clubbing and shopping. i haven't been to ( Read more... )

i find myself missing you. i hope that's a good sign ( Read more... )

my grandma passed away on my birthday.

it feels weird when friends message me "happy birthday!! may your day be filled with happiness and your year be blessed with joy and blahblahblah" and i'm like hmmmm. should i tell them my grandma just passed away so there's not much to celebrate? anyway i decided against it coz it'll make them feel super ( Read more... )

...... but yet i'm not all too excited or happy about it.

things are so messed up that i don't even have the mood to celebrate.

gonna occupy myself with trainings and hopefully work. so i don't have to think about such things.

i'm so tired. i really am.

what a great way to turn 22.

Xiaohui, you're looking for Marriage Material ( Read more... )