I have become the ultimate relationship pessimist. Not that I think that this should come as a surprise after what "following my heart" has done for me in the past few years. To date, of the 5 people who my heart has told me were a good match, I have actually dated 2 of them.. for a total of about 1 month at 1 week of happiness... and a broken ( Read more... )

It has been too long live journal.. but that is life I guess ( Read more... )

- I am officially unemployed.. but only for 2 weeks... then I'll be starting my internship in Illinois. It was strange to be leaving Boston Store.. even after I bitched about it for almost 2 years. I surely won't miss the crappy job, and stupid hours.. but I am seriously going to miss all the friends I made there. They are all such nice people ( Read more... )

-- Will I ever really know when love is right? I feel like I missed out on something in my childhood... I never had that unwavering feeling that I was going to be with someone forever. I was never the girl planning my wedding, dreaming of our kids, I was the girl who refused to plan things more than a month ahead because "who knew where we would ( Read more... )

--This past weekend was definitly my "what the fuck am I doing!?" breaking point. I guess what they always say is right.. sometimes you have to be pushed to your limits... or even past them... to realize the truth about yourself and those around you. I felt in a lot of ways that I hit my rock bottom... definitly hit my lowest point when it came ( Read more... )

I actually feel like I am going to vomit

-- I should not have drank that soda on the way home.. now I'm not tired and I have to work in the AM and I've got a lot on my mind... BAD COMBINATION!

-- Johnny- I am standing by that rewriting that conversation in my head was the best decision I have made.. maybe all week... because clearly the rewritten meaning actually was the real meaning ( Read more... )

-- I was driving in from Delafield and watched an amazing rain cloud coming in... it was soooo beautiful.. and even though rain is sort of depressing most of the time.. for once it didn't make me feel down.. it reminded me just how beatiful nature really is... and it all just happens (I'd say naturally but well.. isn't that obvious.. it's nature ( Read more... )

--Ahh.. my adventures with on-line dating continue.. I got a message from someone with the following profile ( Read more... )

Dear Nick ( Read more... )