Reflection...

[princessapril]

I usually NEVER do this, but I'm unlocking this entry. For some reason, I don't feel that this particular thinking process, while very personal, needs to be locked. So, right now, I'll unlock it. I don't know if I'll keep it this way, but....So much is going on, and whether or not I have any control, things will happen. We could go in for the

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[bitteroptimist]

so beautiful, you've brought tears to my eyes...

I'll be thinking of you and Kevin and Lexie tomorrow. Whether it all begins tomorrow or sometime in the next week, you will be a most excellent mother :)

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[princessapril]

Thank you so much!
*big hugs*

[fearyfeathers]

I soo remember these feelings that you are having, and to this day , (even tho I want to rid myself for an hour of those beautiful beings that I carried) I feel selfish and want to keep them to myself. and give them love and hold them and delight when they hug me or kiss me or out of the blue start walking to me and waving and saying hi. I belive that THIS, MOTHERHOOD is my one true calling that THIS love I feel not only to my three babies but to the MAN that helped me have them is the most perfect gift I could have been given.

Rejoice in the hold and feeding and touching and actually seeing your daughter grow and learn. April you are such a wonderful mother. ***HUGS***

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[princessapril]

I'm glad to know that what I'm feeling is not TOTALLY weird at this point.
Thank you!!!
I went to bed a few minutes after posting that entry, and still was unable to sleep, so I just laid there, and stroked Kev's back as he slept... that is, until Lexie's wiggling sent me to the bathroom for the first of my nightly tinkles.. lol

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[fearyfeathers]

i can't say that i miss those nightly tinkles. i was pregnant for nearly two years straight. i remember and loathe them well:)

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[princessapril]

lol
it wasn't so bad until a few weeks ago... when lexie dropped, it rendered my poor bladder useless for holding more than what seems to be a thimble full of tinkle... lol

[xaheras]

that was an amazing piece of writing april.

and i hope that one day, i too will be able to experience all the joy, confusion, terror etc that comes along with being pregnant and giving birth.

*hugs to you, kevin and lexie*

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[princessapril]

Thank you so much!
I wish that everyone who wishes to feel this way could do it, you know?
I can say that for all the morning sickness, aches, and pains, it is still totally worth it... and I haven't even gotten to hold Lexie yet. I know that everything will intensify whenever I get to hold her in my arms for the first time.

[ex_sandcat309]

I am so excited for you sweetie yay!!!

[princessapril]

Thanks!

I'm still Lexie's host body for a little while longer... :)

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[ex_sandcat309]

hehe

[simplyenchanted]

Wonderful entry, April...very moving and I felt all those things...one piece of advice...make sure that you and Kev have plenty of time alone the first two weeks to bond...family coming by is ok, but limit their stays, it will tend to make you nervous which leads to the baby being nervous...instilling a routine is so vital at the beginning. You will be a wonderful mother and whether or not it happens today or next week, she's coming...soon. Love you sweetie...leaving town today for camping so if it happens, I'll have to find out when I get back...no laptop, ya know? hehehe

[princessapril]

Have fun camping!
She's decided to stay put for a little bit... :)