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[princesschaos85]

I just want to tell everyone I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything that's happened lately. Maybe it's not my fault, but I sure feel like it is. I've hurt everyone, and I'm sure I can't be forgiven by some, but I'm still sorry. By continuing to come online and let the things others do and say get to me, I bring everyone else down with me. Since I can'

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[kong_protocore]

It's not your fault because you react to it. It's usually Niels who brings it up randomly and for no reason. Rae even agreed with us on that. He refuses to let go and move on. He won't let me hear the last of the fact that I'm dating you now and he acts like he's worried that you're going to abruptly leave me for no reason like he claims you did to him. Whatever the case, it's not your fault just because you try to defend yourself. Fuck what Big-Will said all those years ago, the guy's a douche.

I don't want you to leave. You don't have to associate with anyone you don't like or who doesn't like you, but I still want to keep in contact with you. Please... you're all I want in my life anymore. None of my other plans for the future matter if you leave now.

[princesschaos85]

I feel like I hurt you too by coming online, and out of everyone you're the one I want to hurt the least.

[kong_protocore]

Hurt me? You've brought me more joy than I ever could've asked for since I met you. The only thing that hurts me is seeing you like this. I thank God every day that I know you.

[hatmandx27]

I gotta agree with Jason (and Rae too, since she seems to share the same opinion), about how it's always Niels who brings the drama up....cause it kind of is him that always does it. If you leave, he pretty much wins

[racheyrae]

Even though you apparently still don't like me, I don't want you to leave. =/

[princesschaos85]

It's not that I don't like you. I don't know how to explain it. I feel like we're only acquaintances at best, much as I feel with most people online. I just don't feel that anyone understands.

The way I was ignored when I'd enter a chat but everyone else is greeted with glomps and sex, the way people would back up Niels when something bad was said about him but everyone just left whenever I needed someone on my side, how all the guys would go on about how hot and sexy all the girls besdies me are, it makes me feel alone and unwanted. Niels says I'm not a valued member of the group, and things like that make me think he's telling the truth.

[racheyrae]

We're only acquaitances at best because you never give anybody a chance to get to know you. You push us all away... no offense.

And we never greated you with teh secks because you never liked that sort of thing but whenever I see people entering a chat that I'm not dead in, I DO say hi to them... you included.

[princesschaos85]

I tried opening up to people. I thought I was actually making progress, but all I got in return was a chat where people talked about me behind my back because I had finally opened up. Because of that occurrence and others like it, I didn't feel welcome in the group. I didn't feel safe talking in the group. Maybe I did push people away, but others did their share of pushing too. Though others tell me differently, I don't believe it's entirely my own fault I was an outcast in the group.

[schantrac]

I definitely don't hate you. I hope you don't think that because I want to stay friends with niels. (well, try to anyways) that I'm against you or 100% agree with him, I don't. Your presence helps me, we have talked a few times and I enjoy talking with you. If you don't want to come in chats, that is fine.. I'll just IM you more one on one to talk like I'm doing now with jason. If you don't want that either, that's fine as well, but know that I don't hate you.