One reason I don't work out

[princessgeek]

Main reason is because I hate it but I know you can get over that.

Another reason is my arms. They will never be normal. I lost over 100 pounds twice and without surgery (which involves incisions from the armpit to the elbow) I will never be comfortable in a tank top, sleeveless dress, or bathing suit. I might wear them but I will probably be

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[electriclime]

I totally get what you're saying. My family carry our weight in certain areas and it seems it's the ones that are IMPOSSIBLE to get rid of - like upper back and arms.

I feel the same way as you - but about stretch marks. I'll never wear a bikini, but I don't miss it because I don't think I've EVER worn one after 9 years old. It's just a thing that, no matter what I fucking do, I can't get rid of unless I want to have surgery and quite frankly, I can't justify the money just for vanity reasons.

I think you are gorgeous and I know that doesn't mean jackshit, but it's true nonetheless.

[princessgeek]

It does help. I mean I know I'm lucky to have a job and a house and blah blah. I know I'm not hideous, or disgusting, it's just some days you feel like it, y'know?

What happened is we went out to lunch and i thought I looked really cute (and I did, I posted the pic on FB) but there was a second picture of Tim and I where I just look like a disgusting weirdo. I was talking or something and i had an ugly face and my arms make me look like I did when I was 350 pounds. It made me sad that I won't ever have a picture of me that I'm happy with unless it's just my face. Oh well, such is life. It goes on.

[electriclime]

There's a reason I have my FB settings to not show pictures put up by others that I am tagged in.
To be honest - I absolutely hate the picture Chris has as his FB image (it has me in it). HE looks great..I look like a dumbass.

He loves it and I just don't get it. I don't. It's one of the worse pictures I've seen of me so I just can't fucking understand his point of view on my looks AT ALL.

I disagree with you on 'never' being able to like your pictures. You've come very far and you've been through a shitstorm of health issues. I think there will be a day where it's calm, you are healthy and you will say "Fuck yeah. I've come so GD far".

I have faith in this.
One day you'll see what we see. Just as I'm sure one day I'll see what Chris sees.

[princessgeek]

oh maybe, or maybe one day (and I do get there some days) I'll think FUCK IT. Drink my wine and let my freaky fat flag fly. Seriously, we're awesome.