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[princessgeek]

My little black dress with the embroidered rosebuds and the red petticoat is officially too small for me. This is a tragedy. It probably means my space dress is too small too.
So I gotta diet. I hate dieting. Not because I love eating burgers and cheetos so much that it is miserable without them. I actually love healthy food. I hate preparing it. I

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[sistawendy]

Dieting is bad. Permanent changes in eating habits are good. And before I hear anyone wail, "But that's a permanent diet!" Let me say this: yes, in a sense it is.

However, most people are capable of changing their own appetites. It takes time and it takes consistency. I see no reason why you can't do it.

And don't forget the "calories out" part. I've learned through bitter experience that I can't keep my weight where I want it unless I exercise. Make a schedule and keep it. It doesn't matter how you do it as long as you don't injure yourself. After a couple of months, you'll be in the groove.

And yes, I've been fat, at least forty pounds heavier than I am now at one point.

[princessgeek]

Sure, i get the whole "permanent lifestyle change" thing. You can't read a diet book or talk to a dietitian without hearing that.

But...every time I think about it I get some sort of self-hate trigger thing going. It's exhausting to feel such negative feelings everytime you eat. That's why I just gave up and quit acknowledging the problem. I got sick of feeling that way every day. I can't imagine feeling that way every day for the rest of my life.

It's one thing to stop smoking. You don't have to smoke daily to live. In fact, the most successful diets I've ever been on have been starvation diets, because there's no planning and no hating yourself every time you cut up a carrot. I'm not saying it's impossible, but something like 35 years of failure tells me that "eat less, exercise more" just can't be the answer. At least not for me. I guess I'm going to seek some sort of therapy to at least make some attempt to care enough about myself on the way.

[foxfyre]

All I can say is that I was never even slightly successful with making diet and fitness changes until I got some therapy and dealt with all of the ridiculous guilt/shame/self-loathing I kept heaping on myself every time I tried to do better. So maybe you're on to something with that idea. In any case, whatever you decide to do, I wish you success!

[animimi]

Holy shit, do I get this.

Wow. A dietician without ever having being fat. I guess the kindest thing I can say is, "how great for her."

[electriclime]

I'm my own worse enemy. I know math and I get the calories in and exercise and everything.
I know HOW to do it.
But then I want to start and instead end up eating twice as bad and exercise half as much.

It's almost as if I'm programmed to fail.

Progress

[anonymous]

Well, I made some progress. I found a therapist/psychiatrist guy that I thought would be the right one for my issues. Called on the PHONE. If you know me, you know how big a deal it is for me to initiate a call with a stranger. Anyway, they weren't accepting new patients so i tearily gave them my number for the waiting list. I felt like I had taken such a big step, only to be shut down.

So I went on my insurance website, and picked the one that was closest to my work, and sent an email requesting a consultation. There's like 20 doctors in the practice so someone will fit reasonably well.

I decided to talk to a therapist because in my life there are two options. Be happy with being fat (need help with that for sure) or get over whatever is blocking me from losing weight. They might be the same thing. Doing nothing won't help though and diets probably would help but not without some mental scrubbing.

ok bye.

Re: Progress

[princessgeek]

That's me not anonymous. dur