i ve got to stop this crap.... i keep trying to find something wrong w/ grey and there isnt.....whats wrong w/ me?.... has my past really fucked me up this bad?

I love how bad judge of character i am when i kinda like someone.... i like how i cant always read into the games.... does this make me a fool?.... no.... bc i always catch them at it before i get hurt..... that is so sad.... so i have finally given up.... and im tired of ppl saying oh ingrid i really want u to find someone special or theirs ( Read more... )

So ive realized ive been to hard on men.... i tell myself that their all assholes, that they only want sex, and that they dont care about women other than the physical aspects of ourselves... but ive finally been proven wrong, and it scares me. my philosophy on men has always been pretty harsh, mostly cause of my mom, but personally experience ( Read more... )

i always say ( Read more... )

i love drunk moments for this reason:

evan:  if i have my arm around u like this will the lieutenant get mad at me.... i dont wanna get kicked out of the marines bc of u!

me: what are u talking about? whos the lieutenant?

dan: omg the cops are here!! i dont wanna go to jail again

tim: i dont wanna go to jail either

jason: where is he?

me: there are ( Read more... )

well i havent updated in awhile. im not really sure where things are going w/ grey. i like him. i think hes awesome. but we are so different. i mean maybe he is rite. maybe i do party too much, and i have known for awhile that it need to slow down, but i guess its different hearing it from someone else other than natalie and kristine.

i went to ( Read more... )

so the costume party...what can say it was fucking awesome... shawn is the man... he knows how to throw an amazing party. it was everything i had hoped for. i really needed that. i needed a different drinking scene. i needed to meet new ppl and hang out w. some old ones.

........ i kissed dan............. it was everything i had hoped it would be. ( Read more... )

WOW.... ITS NICE HAVING JORDAN IN MY LIFE. HE GAVE ME A REALLY GOOD PERSPECTIVE ON THINGS. I JUST HOPE HES RITE.... I REALIZED THAT AFTER I TALK TO HIM. I DO WANT HIM TO LIKE ME BACK.... JORDAN THINKS HE DOES BUT I DUNNO I'LL GUESS WE'LL SEE.... HE ACTUALLY TALK TO ME TONITE. I THINK IT MIGHT HAVE TO DO W/ LAST NITE... I KINDA SAID SOME STUFF I ( Read more... )

GOD IM AN IDIOT... IM SO STUPID AND I HATE THAT.... WHY DO I DO THIS??

IVE MET THE MOST AMAZING GUY. HES INTELLIGENT, SUPER CHILL, RICH, AND HE REALLY LIKES ME FOR ME. NOT THE OUTSIDE INGRID, NOT THE INGRID EVERYONE WANTS TO BONE, BUT THE REAL INGRID, THE SMART, SILLY INGRID. HE SEES THINGS IN ME THAT ONLY DANIEL SAW.... SOMETHING THAT I HAVE YET ( Read more... )

SO ( Read more... )